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hehe SHO KYOOOOOT!! EVERYONE 07

Hey that suit looks dashing on you

United States of pop 2009 makes me feel so nostalgic. With the thoughts of silver shoes and snitches and warm hands, cold air, bus rides, 5kg of chocolate, karaoke for the first time, feeling independent, looking forward to growing up, shopping for hours, finding new brothers, spin the bottle at dances...

30 day thing - I don't have a favourite movie lulz.

challenge thing continued.

How have you changed in the past two years?
I've been told for the worse, I've been told for the better. I think I'm stronger though. My hair is longer on a superficial note, I also wear lots more make-up. I study a little bit more. I care a little bit less (I'm sorry if that makes me appear mean, I'm just so preoccupied with trying to keep up with everything) and I hardly do anything. Two years ago I would be like YEAH ballet and YEAH netball and YEAH camping and YEAH let's make a band. Now i'm just.. err.. YEAH blogging? haha But I think innately I am still that YEAH i'll-spend-6-hours-a-day-doing-extra-curriculars (which involve lots of in car wardrobe change moments) kind of girl, it's just bad timing. So if you meet me now and think I'm boring, I guess that's just how I am. For the moment.

5 hot men-






Bieber, Westwick, Sheckler, leeminho & Pasqualino.
OOOOFT. yes. in their cutest states. haha I obviously have a thing for food. omnomnomnom

MOMENTUM

So turns out the only place where I live that home-delivers ribs doesn't do it anymore? Lame. Guess I'll be eating maccas then. -smug- ballet metabolism, you better stay for the rest of my life.

So I was having one of those black moments. Those oh-shit, not this again; why am i thinking about this again? moments - and i started staring bleakly through my bus window in pure stoned/blankness when i saw the cutest thing ever.

and instead of being nauseating it made me happy.

we were passing a grass field (yes, penrith has grass fields!) and i saw a young brown haired boy (oh with beautiful golden natural highlights) piggybacking this pretty girl wearing a coat and red beanie! and they were spinning and laughing and happy! hehe, i felt like a stalker so bad, because the only thing i could think about in that moment was taking a picture...

anyway! back to the royal wedding (yes i got tricked into the excitement)

cheerio :D

So Um.... daughters of OCD and sisters of the down D

I'm Amelia and I really should stop being so anxious.
being anxious is lame.


denial ovahhhh
reckon i don't need anymore stupid sessions now biatch? haha

not any harmful intention meant at alll, i think the singer WANTS you to laugh.

oh, SAMWELL ;)

BOSSFIGERMANI

When I'm in my 20's my boyfriend will be one of those cool kids who wears a suit everyday.


BUAHAHAHA.
economics, when my mind gets lost on a tangent (like reading about the relationship between MPC and income!) your daydreaming benefits are endless....

erm

So i thought - "hey because i'm bad at all the normal nerd subjects i'll be good at things like eco..." WRONG. Note to self: stop bludging in class. fml don't know anything so there's that subject off my list. So, all of you awesome people in my eco class (which i really do love) don't distract me. please. i'm very weak when it comes to being influenced. hahaha. just because you all have your nerdy little sciences to fall back on D: So hopefully next exam period i'll be more prepared. Dude my ATAR estimate this time round is going to burn....

aw well :) I still have faith. I know where i need to improve and whatnot (i.e. reading notes right now instead of writing this...?) anyway haha

30 day challenge!

One of your favourite shows -

...

Salami king.

Waiting for my gossip girl to load makes my fingers tingly.
HAHA in the middle of the night, I had this pins and needles attack that was SO HARDCORE that I couldn't move my arm, so I had to pick up the arm with my other arm and move it from hanging off the side of the bed to on the bed. And it was CRAZY.
I grabbed the suddenly paralyzed and tingly arm with my working arm, but i couldn't feel the touch of my working arm on the dead one. It's like the worst natural numbness I've ever experienced.

Haha I had the most restless night ever. I woke up with my head where my feet were, my hand where my pillow was, my heart where my dreams were and my stuffed toys where you're meant to be. :$

30 day challenge continueeeed!
My beliefs - I'm catholic. Do studies of religion if you wanna find out more.

Disrespecting my parents - I know I lie to them a fair bit, but in the end they put me ont his planet and I need to listen to what they say. Even though I don't like to admit it, they're usually right. Plus, I'M SO LUCKY :) They're so supportive and wonderful, and always there to give me hugs and buy me mood pick-me-up cake/porkrolls/pho (OKAY any food lololrofl) when i'm down. We were talking about my future today and suddenly I feel calm. So calm that I think I can conquer the world, even if it isn't the conventional way.

How important you think education is - Ignorant people annoy me (lol that does include myself at times). However, I also get annoyed when people are ignorant in the opposite direction if you know what I mean. Like those smart people at selective schools who don't understand/don't have any compassion for people who aren't like them. You have to understand that people have different fates, not everyone can be academically smart. So stop putting people down BOTH SIDES OF IGNORANCE, because neither of you understand each other. Acceptance is what we need. Do you think the top fashion designers or even Richard Branson did well lin school? No. But I guess I understand the feeling of resentment towards people who succeed without the academic hard work. It is a struggle. We just have to remember that some of those 'stupid bogans' (not my words, quoted off a friend) will succeed in many ways too, and it may not be our ways, but we gotta stop putting them down. Even though yes, we will beat them in the HSC, it doesn't necessarily mean we'll beat them in life. But of course I'm batting for the asian academic team, so for all our sakes, I hope we do even greater things.

Lying in bed on ipod-

Bio is a bore; formspring me? Please&thankyou!

THE SOUND OF LETTING GO.

Highs & Lows of this year (Continuing with meme)
HUMMMMMMMMMMMM

Highs? kisses, heavy eyelids, glitter and bunny ears are pretty high up there on the good list. OH and clicquot & that bathroom stay LOLOL ... erh those few full marks i've gotten, Japan, 3 birthday parties, longchamp/marc jacobs and my sister coming to live with us for the year.

Lows? The end of Chuck & Blair. If you know what I mean.

rgahhhhr meh ceebs writing.

OHMYGAWD

Anyways, haha. I'll tell you what sucks? Past papering with no solutions. I'm so dumb I think everything is wrong, even though it's right a fair bit of the time... So I spend a lot of time second guessing rather than.... well; doing.

Tell you what else sucks? When the WANTED outlet at DFO sells my bloody formal shoes for $70 less than I bought them for. eff you sales. eff you. I finally understand how Crystal felt about her mimco's... and my loss isn't even that bad.

SO, other than being a total hermit today, I WENT SHOPPING! Heheheheh. I am actually so unbelievably smug it's not funny.
Here's what I bought:
❤ Pretty cream skirt thingo (I wanted camel, but realised camel is harder to match with my current wardrobe so... cream it was! AND it was from a DFO sale, meaning i got a $40 discount :))
❤ Silvery/white long blazer with satin detail! ($27!!!)

Thus I got TWO of my wishlist items for LESS than the planned price of one! E.g. The skirt I originally wanted was the Cameo one in this month's cosmo for $89 and it was actually uglier than the one i got. YAAAAY.

Oh, and I have this really bitch phrase which i like to use (to refer nobody in particular, of course) when i'm in a really angry/frustrated mood (use it! it helps): despo fuggo
I use it to refer to inanimate objects as desperate, fugly things. and it makes things a little more bearable.

Although, I can't help it when the inanimate objects just happen to resemble, err... people. Can I? Sigh. My conscience is so horrible sometimes.

ANYWAY, here's my clothing for today, just because i like to style blog if you haven't noticed :)

Love, Amelia.

lol you have issues.

ARGHHHHH WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME BEING HAPPY?! ASDFGHJKL

LOL before i read my notes -

Okaaay! so some random questionnaire that I will do, and VT (AWESOME, FRIENDLY, GREAT VT WHO CAN BREAKDANCE VERY WELL IN THE DRAMA ROOM DURING LUNCH/RECESS ETC - YES, STALK HIM. ESPECIALLY AT PARRA LIBRARY WHEN HE IS NERDING) may answer a few questions, depending on how bored i/he gets on msn :)

What is your favorite cereal?
A: I don't really like cereal that much anymore, but back in the day it was nutri grain and crunchy nut. I reckon I'd really like cap'n crunch if it wasn;t bloody 8.99 at IGA.

V: CRUNCHY NUT CLUSTERS... actually anything with clusters

Would you rather marry a millionaire that is unfaithful or middle class worker that only has eyes for you?
A: Obviously the one who only has eyes for me, otherwise i'm too insecure. Ha, if you read this blog you should know that by now.

V: middle class. why would i need money i'mma be a doctor LOLOL

Would you rather have a job that requires strength of the body or the mind?
A: I wouldn't mind either actually. Obviously mind is more long-term, but i was in love with the idea of dancing for a long time, and i still find ballerinas so refined and amazing and shit :) so yeah. indecisive.

V: either, i don't mind. mind preferably.


If you were the opposite sex for a day, what would be the first thing you’d do?
A: play me some basketball with no disadvantage, do a freeze or two and pee standing up.

V: go around and get hit on just to see what it feels like LOL

What is the scariest thing that has ever happened in your life (that you can share)?
A: I almost got carried out in a rip when i was seven and almost died. true story. got rescued by my dad and some really hunky guy. It's sad that back then i was chubby with a front-fringe wearing a snorkel mask. That rescuer had nice abbbbs.

V:an accident involving head surgery or stitches

Would you ever consider plastic surgery?
A: no, unless i got burnt/in a car crash

What skill do you feel is stronger: your math skills or your english skills?
A: English, definitely. although even that is dwindling these days...

What are you passionate about?
A: Family, understanding and finding inspiring moments in life to ponder and retain as memory. If that makes sense. I have like a memory-bank of cool things that i purposely go around looking for. LOL

Do you believe in abortion?
A: As a catholic I shouldn't, but I believe in it after rape. Although that doesn't mean i'm against anyone who has had/is planning to have or knows people who have had one.

What is the one trait that is mandatory in a potential partner?
Strength, mentally :) Doesn't really mean intelligence, just able to persevere.

Interested in anyone?
Ha, no.

Have you had any relationships this year?
Maybe.

Do you like the person you are becoming?
Noooot particularly

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes of course! Marriage is a relationship! = babies. babies = happiness.

Would you curse in front of your parents?
oh yeah, often now actually. I should stop.

Is there someone of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Papa and the bestfriends :)

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yep!

Last time you had pizza?
Ha, i made my own pizza this afternoon out of breadcrusts, tomato sauce, cheese & salami.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mummy

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
YES!

Who is the last person who wrote a letter to you on paper?
Some dude. LOLOLOL TROLLLOLLL EW.

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Girl: Yeah of course
Guy: Actually have noo idea :L

OKAY CEEEBS
XOXO

Thanks for accepting me.

Chris Martin, I'm PERPETUALLY stuck in reverse.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

the best part, the epic instrumental worthy of five hundred leaps, 70 lyrical performances, 4 thousand sets of tears, 50 nights in bed, grieving over a friend, grieving over a dead friend, worth a smile, worth an adventure. worth... ha, this being my favourite song ever.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

just finished a ast paper that made me feel suicidal.. JKZING.

Earliest memory
that pink bow, those shiny leather shoes. the sign of the cross. the bright light. the simplicity. the quietness. the hope.

Favrourite tumblrs
THE PLANKING ONE :D omg that made me LOLOLOL for literally 128471827312837 minutes. I kinda wanna start doing it. Ha, that reminds me of this '18th' party one of my friends had. The whole point of the party was a whole day & night on a 'Photo Scavenger hunt'. SO there's all these photos you HAVE to get; (even though they may/maynot be very politically correct haha) for e.g.
- photo with a hobo
- photo with a black man wearing a suit
- photo in a pool with all your clothes on, holding a hot dog.
- photo pretending to be 'dead' in a busy food court. (on the floor)
- photo sitting on the edge of a train platform
- photo on a bridge
- photo in a cafe with chocolate all over your face
etc etc etc.

Ha, it sounds fun right? I wanna do that. Reminds me of the gossip girl episode with the polaroids and that 'murder' party. Damn I just want a cool party, Like a foam party or something. Damnit. I just want a foam party :D

View on mainstream music:
I think it's great. Songs get popular most of the time because they ARE GOOD. I don't see a problem with that. BUT if that's ALL you listen to, then you're at a loss i suppose. Listen to this song, man those British people know how to make musiccccccccccc. Doesn't it make you wanna just... live?

wrangler & strangle her.

HA, i feel so disconnected sometimes. But it's weird, i love technology. I love how i can just stumble on someone's blog. A friends blog; and see that i'm not really disconnected. That we're ALL kinda... lost. in that way that i'm feeling. & that makes me happy. haha

so happy that i think i will be able to sleep soon :)

Late, but you'll forgive me (oh I know the 'no-blogging' thing lasted 1 day. but that was before i gave up facebook. this is the compromise.)

Day 12:

- sleep in

- instant noodles

- awkward car ride

- musical

- crazy bitch

- lost phone

- buffet

- now.

Day 13 :)

I've said this enough. New york city, you are mine.

photoblog, im having a writers strike.

whoa, yeah.

KIDS

TEMPORARILY SHUTTING DOWN. DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY, BUT MY PRIVACY IS COMPLAINING TO MY OVERWHELMINGLY LONELY CONSCIENCE TO PUT AN END TO MY RAMBLES.

BYE FOR NOW,

XOXO.

I WEAR HEELS BIGGER THAN YOUR ***

Amelia, please, stop going out and getting crunk/partying just because they are. In the end, you know your conditions, you know what you can live with. You know it's unnecessary. You know that you've got it all planned out. Stop getting ahead of yourself. Wait two years and you're going to get paid to do that shit. Just let it slide. Just close your eyes and open your mind. Listen to speeches, read articles and stop getting brainwashed. It isn't you, it definitely isn't you and I don't like how your obsession with you-know-what is taking this person away from you. You started because of you-know-what and now that it's gone (and hopefully doesn't come back to ruin you again), you can go back to being sane. They have age limits and salaries for a reason. So wait. Wait and you will see that there is lots and lots of shiny, bubbly & backless nights awaiting you in the future. But for now, there are essays. There are past papers. There is stress. But for now your relief isn't a crystal glass and an embellished dress. Your relief is rest. Your relief is family. Just wait, we'll get there. You'll see. And when we're sitting on the edge of that millenium pool holding clicquot thinking about how dumb we were in high school - we'll know. I cannot wait to move out. I cannot wait to feel secure again. I cannot wait till i stop relying on you - because baby, you're not much to rely on. Not much at all.

by the way, I owe a certain person for this realisation. Thowwy for not listening to you bro.

Wait a second.

Am I wrong to think your conditions are horrible? To think you're doing this on purpose? To think that this is all a big joke to you? Why would you want to hurt someone this important to you. I dont get it. I'm confused. I would go for a run if I wasn't so; If I wasn't so...sick...And this kind of sick isn't my own fault either. I know I take it back a lot, but you're partly to blame. Before it was okay because you were trying to fix it, but you gave up. You should take some responsibility now.

Back to being hopeless.

Why do i feel like this?

livin everyday like someone who's scared.

♡

Monaco anyone?

The anger is trying to convince me that I want you to fuck up everything (soooo badly for that matter), but the loyalty is trying to bring back all those hopes i had for your success.

I never let anger outdo loyalty, so please, for both our sakes - don't. screw. up. Not doing a great job of proving it I must say.

yo girl girl g-g-g-g girl girl frendddd

In reference to Phammie's 'single sweatpants' metaphor - I woke up one day and they turned into a crazy sexy pair of fking leather alexander wang leggings. Now i'm ready to rock those babies with some sky high heels & metallic razor sharp nails to cut all those strings that are holding me back.

kinda wanna take a trip to Parkes.. humm ? hahaha

hellyes

I love getting exactly what I want. Haha.

valentino tulle & louboutins

ORGASM.

emma robers, i remember Unfabulous, don't think any of us Nickelodeon lovers forget

;)

**edit, had to add it hehe**

OKAYGO!

'first love and first kiss'

The person who took my first kiss wasn't in love with me. He fell in love with me eventually, but when he kissed me that first time; he didn't love me at all. But then he did. After a long, confusing period, he loved me more than I could ever imagine. But now I use past tense, and it's strange how at this very moment that's the only thing about that first love that I can seem to think of. Past tense. Yeah.

'iPod shuffleee' :)

Miracle - Cascada

One Wish - Ray J

Love in this club - Usher

Amigone - Goo goo dolls

Been around the world - R kelly

Don't look back in anger - Oasis

Stand Alone - Bob Marley

Her Diamonds - Rob Thomas

My love - Justin Timberlake

Song to say goodbye - Placebo

Hahaha, wow those titles :/

no particular relevance at all...