Day 15 — The person you miss the most

some things are better left unsaid,

things disappear sometimes.

holymotherrrrr.

last post, rambled out the words. spasm pasted the pictures
read it myself for the first time just then and i feel like crying.

baby, if the sky is falling down.

ooooh. i want something crazy to happen

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

i don't know if it's called drifting when you're not sure if it was close to begin with.
actually, scrap that. that's awful to say.
it was close; terribly close. it was so close so quickly it was far too much for my trembling hands to control. you've been out of my reach since then and i haven't tried all i could to grab you. i hardly think you realise we've drifted, but right now i think i've gotten so far i might not be able to come back.
aw shit, i've screwed up. i was in denial to this point but i see it now.
at those silent times of night, i'll look up at the shadows playing with the light and think of when i learnt your voice for the first time. And then i'll think of your future and know that it was for the best.

2007-2008. thanks for the memories.













































haha, got a bit carried away? ;O

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Hey sweetheart,
Wow. when I met you i would have never guessed we would end up like this. I never thought I'd be the one asking you for forgiveness. In a way, you've given me more than any girl could ever ask for. I like it that you told me that every time I say it, you believe it. Really believe it.
So here: I'm sorry.
Hypocritical, I know. I'm the one who told you myself that sorry is a slutty word.
The most I can ask for is that you don't block this out.

Hey you,
This is for you too. Far out I'm so selfish sometimes.
This may be a little premature but I hope one day you'll understand.


And to those two whom without I wouldn't be alive,
I was going to say something, but I realised I don't have to ask for your forgiveness because I already know I have it. I'm so sorry you're perpertually forgiving me though.

well you said have fun

mielz&vicks adventures.

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Hey you,

Got nothing much to say to you because I bet you won’t listen. Don’t take people for granted and stop lying! You should also try to stop being so envious of everyone, it’s unattractive. Oh, and get some fucking self control.

i'm ready to go.

today, i didn't feel fifteen again. shiny cards. big sunglasses. chips & dips. night bus rides. 21 questions. sunshine. yellow diamonds. buying dinner for two. tipping taxi drivers :)

i feel quite lucky right now!
ohh.. yet slightly worn out? i don't know how describe it.

happy eofys!
this weekend i bought:
-lipsy london lace dress
-bijoux bow necklace
-(yummy) DKNY midnight blue wallet <3
-ugg boots !! so damn soft

Um, alex...is?

chips tasted better today

haha

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Wow i've blogged like a crazyperson this month.



Here we go. the one letter that's supposed to make people cry, the one that should put most of my heart into. I'm not going to lie and say I've lost someone that really meant much to me. Most of my Grandparents are dead, true... and although I love them, two of them died before I was born and the other I had met very few times. My Lolo (grandpa) pasing away wasn't saddening to me - when we found out it hurt me to see my Papa so horified. I cried out of numbness and helplessness. But I knew that my Lolo (who was the kind of man who wore his hats back-to-front, and treated his servants as friends) was just glad to finally join his wife in heaven. We all knew you missed her so much.




The problem is, I've seen how much grief death brings to the people I love. I've seen that way too much. So here's to you guys up there-

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

2007 - 2008 msn shat

(8:31 PM) (person):	but like most things i make
(8:31 PM) (person):	it will get buried and forgotten
(8:32 PM) - AMEL!A;:	noooooooooooooooo
(8:32 PM) (person):	but thats alright
(8:32 PM) - AMEL!A;:	>
(8:32 PM) (person):	later on it will res memories
(8:32 PM) - AMEL!A;:	>

--

(4:19 PM) - AMEL!A:	haha
(4:23 PM) (person):	*headbutt*
(4:23 PM) (person):	woohoo!
(4:24 PM) - AMEL!A:	haha
(4:24 PM) - AMEL!A:	*headbutts*
(4:24 PM) (person):	*falls down*
(4:24 PM) (person):	D;

okay i totally gave it away right?
sigh, i was going to be all cryptic about this but i can't be bothered anymore (because i'm sleepy) but you were the greatest. legendary. you still are.
haha even though you 'aren't a blog person' and won't read this ==
i really, truly hope you're happy now. i'm sure you are, you have everything a guy would want - and you definitely deserve it :)
april would have definitely been shit weird if it weren't for you. you know how to take my mind off things, lmao. by being stupid and super high, of course.
bro bro bro, ever need anything gimme a shout. i'm kinda still that fucked up emotionally unstable chick from year 7 who will never quite know what the hell you're talking about. but i'll pretend!
cheers to testosterone and baby-jizz in a bottle,

mielz/sis

flowers>pinecones.

good evening m'lad.
*two finger salute*
you're hot.
*runs away*
see you in that hammock one day kiddo