(Stolen off liz's tumblr)
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
With more cheese in this phone i think i might need to start a nacho factory
Sweet talkers will be the death of me.
I love the people ib my life who love me. I love so much. A little too much but i don't care.
I love the people ib my life who love me. I love so much. A little too much but i don't care.
Hmm
COINCIDENCES . CRAZY COINCIDENCES
ALL FUN AND GAMES UNTIL YOU REALISE HOW BLACK AND JEALOUS YOUR HEART IS AFTEE SO MUCH SHIT,
ALL FUN AND GAMES UNTIL YOU REALISE HOW BLACK AND JEALOUS YOUR HEART IS AFTEE SO MUCH SHIT,
Monday, 29 August 2011
Haha what am i on?
I have come to a dickhead of a revelation,
No matter how much i improve my appearance, or anything or whatever or idgaf anymore.
My poor little mislead heart will forever be inhibited by girls with dimples
True story
Note to self: acquire dimple
HAHA TOO BAD THAT IS HUMANELY IMPOSSIBLE
Second note to self:
Don't make up random excuses for being unlikable, fool.
Third note to self:
Do not end relationships on new years. It will fuck up your entire year. Truestory. Not even superstitious.
That is all
I am flabbergasted and utterly lacksadaisical.
No matter how much i improve my appearance, or anything or whatever or idgaf anymore.
My poor little mislead heart will forever be inhibited by girls with dimples
True story
Note to self: acquire dimple
HAHA TOO BAD THAT IS HUMANELY IMPOSSIBLE
Second note to self:
Don't make up random excuses for being unlikable, fool.
Third note to self:
Do not end relationships on new years. It will fuck up your entire year. Truestory. Not even superstitious.
That is all
I am flabbergasted and utterly lacksadaisical.
Saturday, 27 August 2011
THINGS THAT RE DUH HAPPY
- my brand new suede maroon vans sneakers, :) however manly they make my feet look like! so perfect for summer
- perfectly colour coded notes! omgash, yay.
Thursday, 25 August 2011
some kind of amateur beauty blog LOL
Just to prove to you that if you plait your hair before bed you can get relatively nice waves! :)
Wednesday, 24 August 2011
Hmmph, i get so weird sometimes
Fucking angry at everything. Not anyone. Not my stress migraines. Just - eughhhhh i'm such a dickhead sometimes. Soz, not meaning to be deep i'm just posting thought-piss
Angry at not being good at anything anymore
I used to be GOOD at things
I can't really find anything i'm good at anymore.
I don't really know how to extend myself, nor do i have the motivation to do so.
I have the ambition, but childhood conditions have inhibited my ability to grow - to break past this inferior state of mind.
Did i deserve it? To be pushed at a status below? To be considered as of lower effort; a disregarded member of an otherwise exceptional cohort?
Subconscious, immediate, dismissive
No, i didn't. I was brainwashed to believe so
And it is now, at this realisation that i regret.
I regret feeling insecure
I regret putting so many perceptions
above me
Because it restrained my growth
...And now, sadly, theres barely enough room to move.
I hope this balances out in life somehow.
My fingers are crossed that it will.
Yay for the underdog.
Angry at not being good at anything anymore
I used to be GOOD at things
I can't really find anything i'm good at anymore.
I don't really know how to extend myself, nor do i have the motivation to do so.
I have the ambition, but childhood conditions have inhibited my ability to grow - to break past this inferior state of mind.
Did i deserve it? To be pushed at a status below? To be considered as of lower effort; a disregarded member of an otherwise exceptional cohort?
Subconscious, immediate, dismissive
No, i didn't. I was brainwashed to believe so
And it is now, at this realisation that i regret.
I regret feeling insecure
I regret putting so many perceptions
above me
Because it restrained my growth
...And now, sadly, theres barely enough room to move.
I hope this balances out in life somehow.
My fingers are crossed that it will.
Yay for the underdog.
Tuesday, 23 August 2011
zzz the ceebs curse
Looking through photobooth, I realise I looked nicer when I used to wear make up :(
Too bad I ceebz now. Always. And my face is round.
But so glad I found you. I swear you have never EVER seen me with a fully made-up face :O. Yet you're still such a sweetie to me :) Naw. Best feeling ever. Hopefully I can amaze you one day. If I'm still capable of that... doubting it...
me right now: (YAY FISHTAIL)
Sorry very self-concerned post. haha. Just being a luvo of a person for a bit because I am worried about the downward spiral of my appearance LOL
Too bad I ceebz now. Always. And my face is round.
But so glad I found you. I swear you have never EVER seen me with a fully made-up face :O. Yet you're still such a sweetie to me :) Naw. Best feeling ever. Hopefully I can amaze you one day. If I'm still capable of that... doubting it...
me right now: (YAY FISHTAIL)
Sunday, 21 August 2011
Saturday, 20 August 2011
Wednesday, 17 August 2011
SPAM, but cutest thought of the day/month/year
I wonder what the person I'm going to marry is doing right now.
Kirsajan :) TOLD YA ILY BROS.
Hey darlings, I know you've been waiting for this. For what exactly? You really don't know - and neither do I. But I wanna make it special. I don't quite know how yet - but I think if I write enough the thought will just come to me. Sound like a good plan? I know many of you will TLDR this, but I will summarise at the end (you both suggested I do this, see -
And I will take it, so there - credit to you guys. One of you actually showed me that video :) So I guess my motive behind editing that photo should be credited to you too.. (you guiz do so much for me pretty soon I'll have to credit you with my whole lyfe!!)
Okay so here is where the real stuff begins;
Colour differentiating so you feel special :)
I'm sorry you can't really trust me haha. I don't think you've ever lied to me, and if you have it was either to say "you're not fat" or "i don't want your food" - but yeah I dunno if you were bullshatting me or not but I hope you really do forgive me. 'Cause I like it when you trust me. I know all your 'JKS ILY BRO''s are just for the sake of it, but I like them. They make things so much less confusing for me. I hate not knowing where I stand with people. And you give me that clarity. Clarity like opening my lunchbox to find my favourite sandwich in four triangles with no crusts.
How are you so ridiculously good looking? I dunno. I have this secret desire in the bottom of my heart to be as cool as you. I am KEEN to one day have some of your coolness rub off on me, so don't stop hanging around. I need as much time as possible to absorb the required awesome.
I think you will be awesome support for someone one day. 'Cause you already are and I give you no reason to be. Hmm, sick bay. I think that's the day I realised how horrible it would be to lose a friend like you.
Surprisingly awesome on a deeper level. I like your swag ability to sleep through anything, and I especially LOVE your sleepy face. Thanks for letting me stretch out my legs on that 10(?) hour flight. Otherwise I would have had cramps and been in secret pain for days. You smell really nice these days. I like your jokes.
I THINK YOU'RE INSANELY HILARIOUS. Not to suck your cock or anything but, for example, your story about the shit-pockets on my ruler is something only a genius could think up. And you tell me things straight up. Wow that was unrelated, but it's true. People who can see your flaws are usually the ones that can see the real good too.
Sometimes I think that if we knew each other for longer we could have the awesomest stories together. You are so carefree and laidback, I think you should teach me. And you have this super hectic confidence that allows you to put yourself below people in a way that really makes you above them... if that makes sense. idk i am rablingz.
Epically ahfkjahfawhjkjhwejkeh good music taste. Maybe some of the best I have ever encountered.
You have a lot of respect for the people you care about :)
And I will take it, so there - credit to you guys. One of you actually showed me that video :) So I guess my motive behind editing that photo should be credited to you too.. (you guiz do so much for me pretty soon I'll have to credit you with my whole lyfe!!)
Okay so here is where the real stuff begins;
Colour differentiating so you feel special :)
I'm sorry you can't really trust me haha. I don't think you've ever lied to me, and if you have it was either to say "you're not fat" or "i don't want your food" - but yeah I dunno if you were bullshatting me or not but I hope you really do forgive me. 'Cause I like it when you trust me. I know all your 'JKS ILY BRO''s are just for the sake of it, but I like them. They make things so much less confusing for me. I hate not knowing where I stand with people. And you give me that clarity. Clarity like opening my lunchbox to find my favourite sandwich in four triangles with no crusts.
How are you so ridiculously good looking? I dunno. I have this secret desire in the bottom of my heart to be as cool as you. I am KEEN to one day have some of your coolness rub off on me, so don't stop hanging around. I need as much time as possible to absorb the required awesome.
I think you will be awesome support for someone one day. 'Cause you already are and I give you no reason to be. Hmm, sick bay. I think that's the day I realised how horrible it would be to lose a friend like you.
Surprisingly awesome on a deeper level. I like your swag ability to sleep through anything, and I especially LOVE your sleepy face. Thanks for letting me stretch out my legs on that 10(?) hour flight. Otherwise I would have had cramps and been in secret pain for days. You smell really nice these days. I like your jokes.
I THINK YOU'RE INSANELY HILARIOUS. Not to suck your cock or anything but, for example, your story about the shit-pockets on my ruler is something only a genius could think up. And you tell me things straight up. Wow that was unrelated, but it's true. People who can see your flaws are usually the ones that can see the real good too.
Sometimes I think that if we knew each other for longer we could have the awesomest stories together. You are so carefree and laidback, I think you should teach me. And you have this super hectic confidence that allows you to put yourself below people in a way that really makes you above them... if that makes sense. idk i am rablingz.
Epically ahfkjahfawhjkjhwejkeh good music taste. Maybe some of the best I have ever encountered.
You have a lot of respect for the people you care about :)
TLDR - I love them like brothers from another mother. And they deserve beautiful babes, top lives and friends who treat them just as good as they treat me.
rambellzzzz
things i find cute (scrap that) - awesomeeeee:
- getting an inbox from my sister's ex high school sweetheart asking me, her sister (which in an assumed case would be super awkward... but isn't because he's just a top guy), how she is. Haha. It restores my faith in lasting relationships, even if they aren't romantically orientated or whatever. I remember when he first came to our house and I poked my tongue out at him and said "I don't like you". Since then, everyone knows it is I who judges if a boyfriend is allowed to join the fam. He was like my brother for 2 years. I'm happy he still thinks it's normal to talk to me. I hope I can talk to people of similar circumstance in MY life in the same fashion one day.
- YOU. JadhjahDKJDHaodhliuasgf aegfgfAFJHgsafgaSFJ. (: Okay an extra smiley for emphasis (: and maybe a bit of an embarrassed face too... :$
- oh wow the last one just totally put me off my train of thought........
OHRIGHT. - edit -
- yeah the ':)' person has pieces of you in him. pieces. the good ones mostly. I think I will never escape the gamer boy even if my life depends on it....bloody hell DOTA 2. I will forever be the acting 'break' haha.
- getting an inbox from my sister's ex high school sweetheart asking me, her sister (which in an assumed case would be super awkward... but isn't because he's just a top guy), how she is. Haha. It restores my faith in lasting relationships, even if they aren't romantically orientated or whatever. I remember when he first came to our house and I poked my tongue out at him and said "I don't like you". Since then, everyone knows it is I who judges if a boyfriend is allowed to join the fam. He was like my brother for 2 years. I'm happy he still thinks it's normal to talk to me. I hope I can talk to people of similar circumstance in MY life in the same fashion one day.
- YOU. JadhjahDKJDHaodhliuasgf aegfgfAFJHgsafgaSFJ. (: Okay an extra smiley for emphasis (: and maybe a bit of an embarrassed face too... :$
- oh wow the last one just totally put me off my train of thought........
OHRIGHT. - edit -
- yeah the ':)' person has pieces of you in him. pieces. the good ones mostly. I think I will never escape the gamer boy even if my life depends on it....bloody hell DOTA 2. I will forever be the acting 'break' haha.
Tuesday, 16 August 2011
Not gonna lie
Kind of impressed in myself.
I have 219 followers on formspring, ha.
I have 219 followers on formspring, ha.
Thanks, trolls. LOL
Monday, 15 August 2011
sealed with a kiss.
1. men men men men men men men men 2. hiding the way i feel
3. he knows.
4. I saw a view of sydney I haven't seen since. Yummiest nougat too :)
5. Have you seen a well before? Look down it brah.
6. LA[M]BS. The A's, L's, and B's are interchangeable in this scenario (i.e. 2people each) I am M lol. They surround me - support. It's cute right?
7. The little prince.
8. Boys who smell bad, boys who don't eat.
9. Beautiful
10. Penguins, brown bears.
11. He knows. But he also knows I miss who he used to be.
12. I realised I was rebounding hardddddddd.
13. City2surf !
14. Ruse; making you happy :)
15. A snake cunt.
16. Drake - Best I ever had, Mesmerize - Ashanti & Ja Rule, Every teardrop is a waterfall (Sweedish mafia)
17. Lol. It was... hot.
18. Dress sense, charm.
19. Fishies and my two dogs Chief & Angel :)
20. Green tea/Mango/Blood Orange/Violet crumble/Picnic. Fuark gotta love ice cream. haha.
21. On a greek island diving off a white roof into sapphire coloured water... naked.
22. Do you have a brain?
23. Armidale, South Penrith
24. You tell me the truth, you answer calls at 2 a.m
25. To win at life, really.
26. Whether my face really does look like a burnt tree like I was told in primary school...
27. Chillin' and hopefully understanding Apocalypse Now better in double 3u :)
28. Psychiatrist, Professor.
29. You could ask your mum...
30. Big nose, Jiggly fat.
31. The three C's - Charity/Chanel & Caravan JOKES Condo :) AND of course some of it would go to my beloved immediate family.
32. Sweet, sincere, kind of clueless, good intentions, very unserious, older than me, ridiculously mean, squishy... okay that gave it away.
33. My ability to find the positive in almost everything. By overthinking, of course.
34. When people make assumptions. Especially considering intellect.
35. The only one I really care about is Coldplay. A handful more though.
36. LA[M]BS
37. 2. Boy & girl
38. Haha, I'm not too fussed as long as I'm with someone who's charming and adventurous.
39. Writing my name. (Lots of practice!)
40. Nearly drowning. Sleep paralysis.
41. New York City
42. 'I don't know if I have ever met anyone more perfect... '
43. Nah.
44. The tv playing sounds I don't give a shit about.
45. The best you can get.
46. ...
47. Getting into things too fast.
48. To forget.
49. Great :)!
50. ... huh?
51. A lot of those sad statuses were about you.
52. did you miss me? :P
53. ...
54. ...
55. I'm disappointed in you. I forgot about you.
56. High expectations.
Sunday, 14 August 2011
? Ponder.
I wonder if as i get older, i'll start remembering you as the one who disappointed me on my 16th birthday.
Things i like in this point in time
Boys who sing you songs. Boys who PLAY you songs. Boys who DON'T want you to drink. Boys who still think it's cute when you do. Boys who get childish happiness out of cars. Good-morning text boys. Boys who dress well. Boys who smell even better. Boys with dimples and smile-crinkles. Boys in the library studying. Boys who know what's best for you. Boys you know your dad would like. Secret-code making boys. Adding someone because you saw them once and they were so cute you couldn't resist, and getting an unexpected inbox (1) "can you please stop being so gorgeous?" even though you know its just talk. Being able to write about boys again. Finding a special one that you would give up writing about boys for again. "oh, so i take it you like confessions?"
Haha, (:
I sho lame.
I feel like a little girl, sorry for the cheese - but i KNOW some of you can relate. Don't lie haha :)
Haha, (:
I sho lame.
I feel like a little girl, sorry for the cheese - but i KNOW some of you can relate. Don't lie haha :)
Saturday, 13 August 2011
Wasn't going to post but argh frustrationnnn
I'm so fickle. Haha. It's shit, really.
It's either that or my game is completely off. (give me a break, i've been out of the race a looong time)
I've pretended that everything i've done this year has been on purpose - like it was my decision.
But by the number of times i visit your page i know i'm bulshitting myself.
Why am i so naive?
Anyways, i guess it just wasn't meant to be - right? 2 months and 900 inboxes later and i don't think our radars even cross at all now.
Aiyah you think someone who has looked so mature for so long would know what she's doing by now! Really guys... I'm still a kid ....
Beause maybe if i played this better i wouldn't be left so... well only i know how empty this is. Only a few of you girlies know what that feels like. Because i haven't told anyone what happened. For the first time, not a single person - not everythingz anywho.
You were fun
While that lasted. It was too old for me though.
I don't think i'm ready to act that old.
The worst friendships are the ones that result in nothing but a lesson to be learnt.
Oh wow you asked me for an intro to one of my friends abdusbxdusbaiadbidbdiabavudkfid i am so dumb.
It's either that or my game is completely off. (give me a break, i've been out of the race a looong time)
I've pretended that everything i've done this year has been on purpose - like it was my decision.
But by the number of times i visit your page i know i'm bulshitting myself.
Why am i so naive?
Anyways, i guess it just wasn't meant to be - right? 2 months and 900 inboxes later and i don't think our radars even cross at all now.
Aiyah you think someone who has looked so mature for so long would know what she's doing by now! Really guys... I'm still a kid ....
Beause maybe if i played this better i wouldn't be left so... well only i know how empty this is. Only a few of you girlies know what that feels like. Because i haven't told anyone what happened. For the first time, not a single person - not everythingz anywho.
You were fun
While that lasted. It was too old for me though.
I don't think i'm ready to act that old.
The worst friendships are the ones that result in nothing but a lesson to be learnt.
Oh wow you asked me for an intro to one of my friends abdusbxdusbaiadbidbdiabavudkfid i am so dumb.
Friday, 12 August 2011
Inside.
Sincerely missing innocence.
Feeling a genuine longing for it this morning.
I think that's why i'm gravitating towards you.
Feeling a genuine longing for it this morning.
I think that's why i'm gravitating towards you.
Thursday, 11 August 2011
Tuesday, 9 August 2011
(6) hoooly balls, i realised.
It's funny when your only solution is to be 'happy' and 'forget about it' if you truly want something to go your way
Silliest part of that solution is that when it finally starts swinging back in your direction...
you're so 'happy' and you've pretty much tried so hard to 'forget about it'
that you're like... IDGAF anymore.
Haha life's annoying like thattttttt
Silliest part of that solution is that when it finally starts swinging back in your direction...
you're so 'happy' and you've pretty much tried so hard to 'forget about it'
that you're like... IDGAF anymore.
Haha life's annoying like thattttttt
haha lovinnn' life aye tee emz.
skype calls with a new friend :) - i'm sorry, i had to screen your posing face naw (dimple!)
was going to spam post with tumblr pictures but my computer is so slow. I'm still working on my awesome tjsaj blog :( i don't know how to make it special yet.
/things are...
chill./
Monday, 8 August 2011
still working on it boys...
in the meantime
who feels like a party in their head?
yeah that's what happens when you're not ready for the camera - for the anon fs who wanted to know what posing was like..
who feels like a party in their head?
yeah that's what happens when you're not ready for the camera - for the anon fs who wanted to know what posing was like..
Sunday, 7 August 2011
MY WEEKEND.
A diary post, for once. With a clothing diary for kicks :)
Well weekends start with Friday nights, right?
So - I went to max brenner Blacktown with my cuz lex, and we stuffed our faces with food and had our monthly catch up on love, relationships and gossip (all dat shiz). I adored how even at 11pmm the night air was so warm & bearable. We talked about his girl and my world and walked around the perimeter of the outdoor seating area at Westpoint like 300 times. I felt so grown up. I remember meeting the kid as a fatty little 8 year old haha.
I had a YFC sector meeting where I met heaps of awesome people :) And it was so vibrant and fun. So full of nommy food and bball and altogetherness. haha. I might expand on this one day
nights I'll never remember with mates i'll never forget :)? I think the snapshot of my texts to my trusty sister is an explanation in itself...
Well weekends start with Friday nights, right?
Friday
So - I went to max brenner Blacktown with my cuz lex, and we stuffed our faces with food and had our monthly catch up on love, relationships and gossip (all dat shiz). I adored how even at 11pmm the night air was so warm & bearable. We talked about his girl and my world and walked around the perimeter of the outdoor seating area at Westpoint like 300 times. I felt so grown up. I remember meeting the kid as a fatty little 8 year old haha.
Saturday - day :)
I had a YFC sector meeting where I met heaps of awesome people :) And it was so vibrant and fun. So full of nommy food and bball and altogetherness. haha. I might expand on this one day
Saturday - night ;)
nights I'll never remember with mates i'll never forget :)? I think the snapshot of my texts to my trusty sister is an explanation in itself...
Sunday :)
Shopping @ IKEA & DFO! Most glorious family-filled day. I felt. Good. Whole. Nice. ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL :)
I bought some amazing clothes (favs of the day, sheer button up top & highwasted shorts for 10$)! And dad surprised me with a huuge 2m x 1.5m print of Paris at night for my room. It's bloody gorgeous.
HAPPY WEEKEND.
Shopping @ IKEA & DFO! Most glorious family-filled day. I felt. Good. Whole. Nice. ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL :)
I bought some amazing clothes (favs of the day, sheer button up top & highwasted shorts for 10$)! And dad surprised me with a huuge 2m x 1.5m print of Paris at night for my room. It's bloody gorgeous.
HAPPY WEEKEND.Saturday, 6 August 2011
boys before flowers.
OKAY s&tj, your blog is coming... it's still under some major work construction. wellll..
thoughts of today
- relationships leave a lot hanging on timing. if only i knew you now... fuark hating being too late. hating going from strangers to close to strangers again. the relationship (incl. friendship) cycle. hoping that never happens again with that new person kinda on my mind (weirdweirdweird). That new person who is sorta replacing the old one in my father's teasing. I hate how my dad teases me about boys and secretly loathes them. Oh wait nah, that's just cute :) my dad is the best. and has finally stopped making me upset by teasing me about the recurring motif... i think he noticed my sudden change of well, um, heart. Yeah my heart has changed.
- I know so many guys who are like jahsdkjhDASHDJAKSDH adorable with their gf's :) Like their phone wallpaper is her face. And it's fucking amazing to watch them slide unlock on their phone and just smile. Smiling like douches yet proud. Even when their girlfriend is in a hoodie and just woken up in the photo. It makes me jels but makes me happy at the same time. And the happy is a much more powerful emotion for me, so I must say this is something I like to see. So boys, do it more often.
- I like that throw-you-in-the-air hug. Was never particularly attracted to strong guys, but after today /fuckyoutiming/ I remember how lovely it is. Seeing someone grin and grab you in their big, strong arms and swing you around in a hug that's so fast and so nice you feel like... you feel just instantly warm. I don't really think many people CAN pick me up. I'm rather large. But that was nice :) And i know that will never happen. I just wish we had the chance to know each other now.
Warmth and detachment in the same room is a rather odd thing ~
That's my word. Detachment.
I'm going to stop overanalysing and just leave it at that.
thoughts of today
- relationships leave a lot hanging on timing. if only i knew you now... fuark hating being too late. hating going from strangers to close to strangers again. the relationship (incl. friendship) cycle. hoping that never happens again with that new person kinda on my mind (weirdweirdweird). That new person who is sorta replacing the old one in my father's teasing. I hate how my dad teases me about boys and secretly loathes them. Oh wait nah, that's just cute :) my dad is the best. and has finally stopped making me upset by teasing me about the recurring motif... i think he noticed my sudden change of well, um, heart. Yeah my heart has changed.
- I know so many guys who are like jahsdkjhDASHDJAKSDH adorable with their gf's :) Like their phone wallpaper is her face. And it's fucking amazing to watch them slide unlock on their phone and just smile. Smiling like douches yet proud. Even when their girlfriend is in a hoodie and just woken up in the photo. It makes me jels but makes me happy at the same time. And the happy is a much more powerful emotion for me, so I must say this is something I like to see. So boys, do it more often.
- I like that throw-you-in-the-air hug. Was never particularly attracted to strong guys, but after today /fuckyoutiming/ I remember how lovely it is. Seeing someone grin and grab you in their big, strong arms and swing you around in a hug that's so fast and so nice you feel like... you feel just instantly warm. I don't really think many people CAN pick me up. I'm rather large. But that was nice :) And i know that will never happen. I just wish we had the chance to know each other now.
Warmth and detachment in the same room is a rather odd thing ~
That's my word. Detachment.
I'm going to stop overanalysing and just leave it at that.
Friday, 5 August 2011
Thursday, 4 August 2011
Cherry ripe, bananas and some shit
Saj, TJ. - you are the reason i wake up in the mornings.
I remember once, a long long time ago, pooface #1 told me it would be cool if they could ever understand my blogposts.
You see through them now.
Its weird.
A good weird, but weird.
And in response to some of the crap you were giving me today;
This blog is cryptic for a reason, if you assume, you ASSUME. even those mentioned above have misinterpreted meaning - i don't blame you, you can all think what you like. But never take what you think as the truth, because although what i write seems straightforward after a while - it really isn't. theres a lot more behind my writing than that 'recurring motif'
I don't have a motif anymore.
All i need is you two ;)
Happy?
I'm sleepy zzzzz
I remember once, a long long time ago, pooface #1 told me it would be cool if they could ever understand my blogposts.
You see through them now.
Its weird.
A good weird, but weird.
And in response to some of the crap you were giving me today;
This blog is cryptic for a reason, if you assume, you ASSUME. even those mentioned above have misinterpreted meaning - i don't blame you, you can all think what you like. But never take what you think as the truth, because although what i write seems straightforward after a while - it really isn't. theres a lot more behind my writing than that 'recurring motif'
I don't have a motif anymore.
All i need is you two ;)
Happy?
I'm sleepy zzzzz
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
I'll fly. high, high, high.
Everybody see's it's you
I'm the one that lost the view
Everybody says we're through
I hope you haven't said it too
So where
Do we go from here
With all this fear in our eyes
And where
Can love take us now
We've been so far down
We can still touch the sky
If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, Yeah
Why did I change the pace
Hearts were never meant to race
I always felt the need for space
But now I can't reach your face
So where
Are you standing now
Are you in the crowd of my faults
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance
We can still have it all
If we crawl(if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run (then we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
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Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, yeaaah
Everybody see's it's you
Well I never wanna lose that view
So we'll crawl (if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
So we'll crawl (ooh)
Till we can walk again (till we can walk again)
Then we'll run (we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump (until we're strong enough to jump)
Then we'll fly (then we'll fly)
Until there is no end
So let's crawl, let's crawl, lets crawl
Back to love
Back to love yeah
Back to love
Admitted. I gained a tiny bit of weight. nts: In uni - cross my heart, I promise myself my bod will look like that - even if I have to train advanced 2 ballet 4 times a week. Haha. No more tim tams for me! :(
Train reflections.
Traditions and friendship.
I have trouble accepting my pradicament half of my life.
Like, i'll always be thinking - hey, this isn't fair, or, what happened? -why are things like this?
It takes me a really long time to accept when things are actually for my benefit. It takes me a while to understand why neutral gets beaten by support. It took me too long to understand i need to suggest it first for it to happen.
All of that was slightly unrelated and totally pointless for you to read, but i think it sums up my acceptance. It sums up a lot of highschool for me. It's the consequences of my indecision.
But i am decisive enough to say that this afternoon was the warmest i have felt in what feels like a decade. It was like winnie the pooh personally fed me a spoonful of his precious honey.
Standing there in the sun, just .... being in the same mindspace. That corner where i've told all my secrets, where we've been silent, obnoxious and even at times awkward...
So corny if you know what i'm talking about but I admit the detatchment is something I can't stand anymore. Now that I remember what it was like, weekly ritual - please?
Miss ya.
I have trouble accepting my pradicament half of my life.
Like, i'll always be thinking - hey, this isn't fair, or, what happened? -why are things like this?
It takes me a really long time to accept when things are actually for my benefit. It takes me a while to understand why neutral gets beaten by support. It took me too long to understand i need to suggest it first for it to happen.
All of that was slightly unrelated and totally pointless for you to read, but i think it sums up my acceptance. It sums up a lot of highschool for me. It's the consequences of my indecision.
But i am decisive enough to say that this afternoon was the warmest i have felt in what feels like a decade. It was like winnie the pooh personally fed me a spoonful of his precious honey.
Standing there in the sun, just .... being in the same mindspace. That corner where i've told all my secrets, where we've been silent, obnoxious and even at times awkward...
So corny if you know what i'm talking about but I admit the detatchment is something I can't stand anymore. Now that I remember what it was like, weekly ritual - please?
Miss ya.
Monday, 1 August 2011
SCARY
YOU HAVE NO IDEA, BUT IF I HAD TO ANSWER THIS QUESTION IT WOULD BE THE EXACT YES, EXACT, EXACT SONGS. oh wow. LOL SORRY FOR THE RANDOM STALKER screenie emily :) but fuck something this coincidental has never happened to me before.
Something I thought I wanted to share with all the girlies :)
Apparently '20 things that are better than sex' (according to cosmo.)
BUT THAT IS TRUE OF NOTHING! (I kid, I kid, geez)
So I will rename it - 20 things you should notice every day instead of being a pms betch :)
1) When your boyfee leaves you a note for no apparent reason (doesn't apply to me, but cute - nevertheless APPRECIATE, those of you who can relate lol)
2) Indulging in a sneaky burger :D
3) Sleeping in clean sheets (my fav :))
4) When a store has both a 'boyfriend' chair and magazines (not applicable LOL but great for when my dad goes shopping with mum, Ana & I OHWAIT! dad's in the changeroom admiring himself...)
5) Taking a nap right when you need one (naps = love)
6) Finding out someone's already done a chore you were dreading
7) A cute guy checking you out as you're strolling down the street (never thought this ever happened, but it has OHMYGAWSH and it is so nice LOL)
8) Wolfing down birthday cake!
9) When you get to the counter with your sale item and it's another 25 percent off! (Uhm, excuse me while i dance in my head! -cough- $40 coat from myer originally $150)
10) Checking your phone and discovering that the guy you like has messaged you :)
11. Waking up naturally! (no one ever notices how lovely this really is!)
12) Being upgraded on a flight (I am yet to experience this... hopefully oneday ;))
13) When chocolate is just the right temperature for eating
14) The sound a bottle of wine makes on its first pour :')
15) A good hair day. (Think this one's a given!)
16) Having someone compliment your outfit and then telling them that you got it for less than $20 (pretty much indirect - "you're hawt, nice styling")
17) That second-day, post-workout, I-worked-my-butt-off-ache (More like i-need-a-effing-massage! but love nevertheless, hehe, I love it when my -abs- hurt LOL, sadly hasn't been the case in a while...)
18) Getting your hair washed by somebody else (um never experienced, any takers? JKS. awww :') City Hunter!)
19) Finishing a book, closing it and running your hand over the cover (does anyone ever smell it too? Okay well.. maybe I'm just...)
20) Crying so hard in a movie that snot comes out
So, there it is. It should be at least 80% applicable to most of us, right?
Have fun appreciating!
OOOOH IKEA AND DFO WITH THE PARENTS (AKA CREDIT CARDZ) THIS WEEKEND YARRRRRR BABY.
(Can you tell I'm happy that Ag is over, 'cause I dunno if it's obvious or not, really...)
BUT THAT IS TRUE OF NOTHING! (I kid, I kid, geez)
So I will rename it - 20 things you should notice every day instead of being a pms betch :)
1) When your boyfee leaves you a note for no apparent reason (doesn't apply to me, but cute - nevertheless APPRECIATE, those of you who can relate lol)
2) Indulging in a sneaky burger :D
3) Sleeping in clean sheets (my fav :))
4) When a store has both a 'boyfriend' chair and magazines (not applicable LOL but great for when my dad goes shopping with mum, Ana & I OHWAIT! dad's in the changeroom admiring himself...)
5) Taking a nap right when you need one (naps = love)
6) Finding out someone's already done a chore you were dreading
7) A cute guy checking you out as you're strolling down the street (never thought this ever happened, but it has OHMYGAWSH and it is so nice LOL)
8) Wolfing down birthday cake!
9) When you get to the counter with your sale item and it's another 25 percent off! (Uhm, excuse me while i dance in my head! -cough- $40 coat from myer originally $150)
10) Checking your phone and discovering that the guy you like has messaged you :)
11. Waking up naturally! (no one ever notices how lovely this really is!)
12) Being upgraded on a flight (I am yet to experience this... hopefully oneday ;))
13) When chocolate is just the right temperature for eating
14) The sound a bottle of wine makes on its first pour :')
15) A good hair day. (Think this one's a given!)
16) Having someone compliment your outfit and then telling them that you got it for less than $20 (pretty much indirect - "you're hawt, nice styling")
17) That second-day, post-workout, I-worked-my-butt-off-ache (More like i-need-a-effing-massage! but love nevertheless, hehe, I love it when my -abs- hurt LOL, sadly hasn't been the case in a while...)
18) Getting your hair washed by somebody else (um never experienced, any takers? JKS. awww :') City Hunter!)
19) Finishing a book, closing it and running your hand over the cover (does anyone ever smell it too? Okay well.. maybe I'm just...)
20) Crying so hard in a movie that snot comes out
So, there it is. It should be at least 80% applicable to most of us, right?
Have fun appreciating!
OOOOH IKEA AND DFO WITH THE PARENTS (AKA CREDIT CARDZ) THIS WEEKEND YARRRRRR BABY.
(Can you tell I'm happy that Ag is over, 'cause I dunno if it's obvious or not, really...)
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