today, my mother and I raced my dad on the great western highway.
we won because he was driving the Volvo,
but it may have been the most outrageous and ridiculous thing I have done in a while.
Shit, my dad is hilarious :)
Friday, 30 April 2010
bitches be bad.
today, my mother and I raced my dad on the great western highway.
we won because he was driving the Volvo,
but it may have been the most outrageous and ridiculous thing I have done in a while.
Shit, my dad is hilarious :)
Thursday, 29 April 2010
chocolate can literally make my day.
Here's some weird and personal questions, you down?
no, i'm not down fag :|
course i am ^^
Does the number 18 have any significance to you?
yeah. it does surprisingly.
Do you have any alcohol bottles in your room?
indeed. somewhere under my penquin pyjamas.
Last person to text you?
ben
Do you think you like anyone?
bleh
Have you kissed someone whose name starts with J?
nopes. hahaha
Ever been so drunk someone else had to carry you?
um. well would i remember that ?
Had sex in a movie theater?
nah buddy.
Has any one of your friends ever seen you cry?
most of them, actually
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
no way, (Y)
Want someone back in your life?
not really, whoa.
How many doors are in your house?
13ish i think ? HAHA MY DAD WOULD HATE THAT.
What event would you go back in time to see, if you could?
hmm, jb concert. ONLY BECAUSE it was recent and i cant think back that faar lol
Do you remember the last thing you said you wanted?
see prev. blog
Who was the last friend you hung out with & what'd you do together?
tom, we took the bus :3
Do you know when to use 'to' & 'too'?
NAH OFCOURSE NOT
okay sorry about the pretentious sarcasm
Have any good school pictures? or do they all just suck?
mine's okay atm i guess :\
Do you ever wonder what people think when they look at you?
yes, constantly.
Are you currently IN love with anyone?
no. hmm.
Don't you hate when people you love/care about annoy you with stupid crap?
haha what do you mean by 'stupid crap'
Do you ever walk alone at night just because, or does that freak you out?
yeah i suppose, but it DOES freak me out so zzz not in a while.
Without trying, do you act differently around different friends?
yeah actually, but it's nothing major.
What was the last thing you drew/wrote on your own or someone elses' skin?
gay
hahahaha im so lame.
What's the most money you've ever spent on one piece of clothing?
errr, hmm 180?
Was your last kiss a mistake?
no.
When was the last time you saw the second person on your top?
schoooool.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yes.
Do you smoke more than you drink?
YUCK THATS SICK
Think back in February, how was your love life then?
good. yeah, it's true. you remember the good stuff.
for his credit- february was amazing :)
Anyone you're giving up on?
...
Have you kissed one person more than 20 times in '10?
yeah.
Are you one of those people who constantly check the time?
nope not at all
If your best friend said they were running away, what would you say?
dont be a fucking hobo, come live with meeee :)!
ok wait slightly awkwa... never mind.
Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
haha quiz you just keep getting bettttter
Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
feet.
hmm should to maths.
THIGH MUSCLES ARE A BIATCH
i want things again! damnit i resolved to not spend much after euro (even though i bought boots, a bag and a whole bunch of other crap since then but that's not the point)
- red trench coat
- tight high-waist skirt (it would be cool if i could get a corset too)
whoa, that's it. hehe my resolve is at least slightly true!!
okay well today was a better day, no?
WHY ARE WE ALL SO SAD LATELY ?!
ok i know why but lets be happy.
- red trench coat
- tight high-waist skirt (it would be cool if i could get a corset too)
whoa, that's it. hehe my resolve is at least slightly true!!
okay well today was a better day, no?
WHY ARE WE ALL SO SAD LATELY ?!
ok i know why but lets be happy.
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
3 pointers don't do much good.
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that's like my 12th ANZAC biscuit
where the shat is my double chocolate brownie ice cream?
sigh, brought it upon myself i suppose.
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that's like my 12th ANZAC biscuit
where the shat is my double chocolate brownie ice cream?
sigh, brought it upon myself i suppose.
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
Monday, 26 April 2010
haha all of this brings back a wave of nostalgia
I REMEMBER WHEN THE APATHY EULOGY WERE JUST BEGINNING AND I FOUND THEM AND THEY COMMENTED ME ON MYSPACE AND WE TALKED AND THEY SAID THEY LOVED ME!
AND NOW THEY HAVE TOO MANY PEOPLE TALKING TO THEM!
The old version was better. it was so raw. this version feels like its clustered and held back.. sounds funny.
perfect kisses lead to one night stands
AND NOW THEY HAVE TOO MANY PEOPLE TALKING TO THEM!
The old version was better. it was so raw. this version feels like its clustered and held back.. sounds funny.
perfect kisses lead to one night stands
i'm sick of this -
STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.
A- always - blink 182.
M - miss independent - neyo.
E - everytime we touch - cascada.
L - lips of an angel - hinder.
I - irreplaceable - beyonce.
A - alamo is no place for dancing - the scene aesthetic (yes, i know i cheated).
STEP TWO:
– Name: amelia
– Birth date: 02.02.1995
– Nickname: mieeeelzbaby!
– Eye Color: Brown
– Hair Color: Black
– Zodiac Sign: aquarius
STEP THREE:
– The shoes you wore today: black wedge-flats & brown ugg boots.
– Your weaknesses: i'm a sucker for a sweet talker yeah. oh and free food? haha.
– Your fear(s): cockroaches, heights, rapists, embarrassment.
– Your perfect pizza: pepperoni sitting on a new york sidewalk.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: success
STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature: eyes.
– Your bedtime? i wish it was 10.30
РMost missed memory? my mother showed me something today. it was a letter i wrote to Santa Clause when i was 8 years old. i told him i didn't want a present. i told him to give presents to the kids in 3rd world countries. i told him i wouldnt be smiling at christmas until 500 of them were smiling. i miss that innocence. i miss that belief. i miss that naivet̩. i miss that simplicity. i miss that hope. i miss that desire. i miss that compassion. i miss believing in santa (haha.)
STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Coke
– McDonald’s or Burger King: maccas
– Adidas or Nike: adidas (:
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea ! they have pear.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: depends, no.
– Cappuccino or coffee: hmm whichever.
STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Curse: yes
– Sing: yes
– Dance: yes
– Take a shower everyday: yes
– Have a crush: maybe not. gaahaha,
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: think.
– Want to go to college: deffo's hahah my parents want me gone already.
– Like(d) high school: LOVE IT
– Want to get married: of course :)
– Get motion sickness: hardly ever
– Think you’re attractive: sure.
– Think you’re a health freak: nooope haha
– Get along with your parents: yes, <3
STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall shopping center: yes
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: naa, heaps of those wafer sticks though :)
– Eaten Sushi: yep.
– Been on stage: yep.
– Gone skating: nope
– Made homemade cookies: naaa
– Gone Skinny dipping: nup
– Stolen anything: does from my sister count ?
STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeees
– If so, was it mixed company: yes hahahahahahaha
-- Flashed anyone: yes hahaha
– Been beaten up: nope
– Shoplifted: nup
STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: before 30 :)
– Numbers of Children: 2
– Describe your Dream Wedding: small, couture dress, happy people, tiffany blue, sunshine, yummy cake!
– What country would you most like to visit? now? america.
STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
– Best eye color?: depends.
– Best hair color?: natural
– Short hair or long hair?: ahhh whatever.
– Height: TALL.
STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
– Number of CDs that I own: like 12.
– Number of tattoos: zero
– Number of piercings: ears, belly.
Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? family
What woke you up this morning? body clock broooo!
Where are you? study
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? hell no.
THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? yes :\
Passed out because of alcohol? haha nope
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? the time.
THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? modern and awesome ? i have this idea of a pool table that's waterproof and you play while in the pool. it would be next to my pool bar with fully trained staff. and situated underneath my barney tv.. wait for it- ROOF. yes my roof will be a tv.
What do you want to be when you grow up? psych
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? university :3
IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? yes :)
When was the last time you fell over or into something? i forget haha,
Do you listen to music every day? not anymore :\
Do you still go trick or treating? i wish! lets go this year!!
What was the last thing you ate? oreo wafer stick ;
Are you a fast typer? nehhh.
Whats your favorite type of soda? creaming.
Have you ever moved? once
Have you ever won an award? yep :)
Are you listening to music right now? naaaaa
How long ’till your birthday? its next year!
When were you the saddest in your whole life? you think i can blog that?
What time is it?8:17
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? hmm, almost never.
Who makes you mad? myself.
Something you want to happen in 2010? everything, i want it to be a good year.
Summer 2010? was... eventful ;)
Honestly, do you miss 2009? yeah.
HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? purple.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? stupid subsystems
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? doing this survey (Y)
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? eh. no surprisingly. ohh. procrastinate.
WHAT HAPPENED TO 4,5,7? HAHA TRUE,
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? umms, ben.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? sort of.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? people who think they're better than you.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? sometimes.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? nope
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? anyone
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? haha.
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? yes.
17. Honestly, are you in denial? yes.
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? HAH YES.
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? love everyone man, thats how i roll.
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? well.. no.. obviously :\ haha.
ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? i stay quiet, i mutter unhearable things, i stare at things because i think the force of my anger will break them.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? i bit someone's finger.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yeah.
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? too much. i need to control
CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? last night.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? -
3. Do certain songs make you cry? yeah, depending when i listen to them.
4. What usually makes you cry? when i feel inadequate.
HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? ACTUALLY I TOTES AM :D :D
2. What makes you the happiest? when things are not stressful haha.
4. Do you believe in yourself? depends when you catch me.
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? actually yes, how sad.
Spell your name with songs.
A- always - blink 182.
M - miss independent - neyo.
E - everytime we touch - cascada.
L - lips of an angel - hinder.
I - irreplaceable - beyonce.
A - alamo is no place for dancing - the scene aesthetic (yes, i know i cheated).
STEP TWO:
– Name: amelia
– Birth date: 02.02.1995
– Nickname: mieeeelzbaby!
– Eye Color: Brown
– Hair Color: Black
– Zodiac Sign: aquarius
STEP THREE:
– The shoes you wore today: black wedge-flats & brown ugg boots.
– Your weaknesses: i'm a sucker for a sweet talker yeah. oh and free food? haha.
– Your fear(s): cockroaches, heights, rapists, embarrassment.
– Your perfect pizza: pepperoni sitting on a new york sidewalk.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: success
STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature: eyes.
– Your bedtime? i wish it was 10.30
РMost missed memory? my mother showed me something today. it was a letter i wrote to Santa Clause when i was 8 years old. i told him i didn't want a present. i told him to give presents to the kids in 3rd world countries. i told him i wouldnt be smiling at christmas until 500 of them were smiling. i miss that innocence. i miss that belief. i miss that naivet̩. i miss that simplicity. i miss that hope. i miss that desire. i miss that compassion. i miss believing in santa (haha.)
STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Coke
– McDonald’s or Burger King: maccas
– Adidas or Nike: adidas (:
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea ! they have pear.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: depends, no.
– Cappuccino or coffee: hmm whichever.
STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Curse: yes
– Sing: yes
– Dance: yes
– Take a shower everyday: yes
– Have a crush: maybe not. gaahaha,
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: think.
– Want to go to college: deffo's hahah my parents want me gone already.
– Like(d) high school: LOVE IT
– Want to get married: of course :)
– Get motion sickness: hardly ever
– Think you’re attractive: sure.
– Think you’re a health freak: nooope haha
– Get along with your parents: yes, <3
STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall shopping center: yes
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: naa, heaps of those wafer sticks though :)
– Eaten Sushi: yep.
– Been on stage: yep.
– Gone skating: nope
– Made homemade cookies: naaa
– Gone Skinny dipping: nup
– Stolen anything: does from my sister count ?
STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeees
– If so, was it mixed company: yes hahahahahahaha
-- Flashed anyone: yes hahaha
– Been beaten up: nope
– Shoplifted: nup
STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: before 30 :)
– Numbers of Children: 2
– Describe your Dream Wedding: small, couture dress, happy people, tiffany blue, sunshine, yummy cake!
– What country would you most like to visit? now? america.
STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
– Best eye color?: depends.
– Best hair color?: natural
– Short hair or long hair?: ahhh whatever.
– Height: TALL.
STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
– Number of CDs that I own: like 12.
– Number of tattoos: zero
– Number of piercings: ears, belly.
Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? family
What woke you up this morning? body clock broooo!
Where are you? study
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? hell no.
THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? yes :\
Passed out because of alcohol? haha nope
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? the time.
THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? modern and awesome ? i have this idea of a pool table that's waterproof and you play while in the pool. it would be next to my pool bar with fully trained staff. and situated underneath my barney tv.. wait for it- ROOF. yes my roof will be a tv.
What do you want to be when you grow up? psych
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? university :3
IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? yes :)
When was the last time you fell over or into something? i forget haha,
Do you listen to music every day? not anymore :\
Do you still go trick or treating? i wish! lets go this year!!
What was the last thing you ate? oreo wafer stick ;
Are you a fast typer? nehhh.
Whats your favorite type of soda? creaming.
Have you ever moved? once
Have you ever won an award? yep :)
Are you listening to music right now? naaaaa
How long ’till your birthday? its next year!
When were you the saddest in your whole life? you think i can blog that?
What time is it?8:17
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? hmm, almost never.
Who makes you mad? myself.
Something you want to happen in 2010? everything, i want it to be a good year.
Summer 2010? was... eventful ;)
Honestly, do you miss 2009? yeah.
HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? purple.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? stupid subsystems
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? doing this survey (Y)
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? eh. no surprisingly. ohh. procrastinate.
WHAT HAPPENED TO 4,5,7? HAHA TRUE,
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? umms, ben.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? sort of.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? people who think they're better than you.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? sometimes.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? nope
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? anyone
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? haha.
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? yes.
17. Honestly, are you in denial? yes.
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? HAH YES.
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? love everyone man, thats how i roll.
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? well.. no.. obviously :\ haha.
ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? i stay quiet, i mutter unhearable things, i stare at things because i think the force of my anger will break them.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? i bit someone's finger.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yeah.
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? too much. i need to control
CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? last night.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? -
3. Do certain songs make you cry? yeah, depending when i listen to them.
4. What usually makes you cry? when i feel inadequate.
HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? ACTUALLY I TOTES AM :D :D
2. What makes you the happiest? when things are not stressful haha.
4. Do you believe in yourself? depends when you catch me.
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? actually yes, how sad.
the most uncreative of boring blog titles.
it's like a chain reaction.
why did you stop ?!
my desire to do this is diminishing as i type.
well, a lot of things i desire to do are.
damnit woman, where is your willpower?
why did you stop ?!
my desire to do this is diminishing as i type.
well, a lot of things i desire to do are.
damnit woman, where is your willpower?
Sunday, 25 April 2010
Hoe's like diamonds
thats how i remember it goes from rotary hoe to diamond harrows. now aren't i a smart cookie?
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*Hey there
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*heeey
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*hey
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*yeah?
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*i'm 21/f your a male right?
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*yeah there are guys out there with the name Amelia ?
----block-----
yaaaaah
sorry about the scary last few posts, but its true. hahaha it's not weird.
yeah its not weird :D
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*Hey there
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*heeey
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*hey
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*yeah?
xPauleeniDEATONRp@hotmail.com says:
*i'm 21/f your a male right?
- mielzbaby! (*) says:
*yeah there are guys out there with the name Amelia ?
----block-----
yaaaaah
sorry about the scary last few posts, but its true. hahaha it's not weird.
yeah its not weird :D
Saturday, 24 April 2010
Thursday, 22 April 2010
i see trees of greeeeen
marvellous day
haha i'm so stuffed of noodles and gelato- but instead of feeling self conscious, i feel like a fat buddha that's just so happy for no dang good reason. woah this feeling is so strange.
anyway, i feel like a weight has been lifted off me in many ways. however, i think i may have let it go too many times. (nts: catch the weight again and put it somewhere safe)
i got some relatively good news today too. and i just had one of those really chill days where nothing disappointing happened. gah, who knew that the single day i'm NOT directly disappointed by something, i am magically happy? why are my days so full of disappointment?
hmmm. i wonder.
i am the queen of setting my hopes too high.
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
these titles are amusing to me
very amusing.
haha posting a screenshot of blogger on to blogger feels slightly ridiculous but whatever.
all of them, every title since the beginning.
haha posting a screenshot of blogger on to blogger feels slightly ridiculous but whatever.
all of them, every title since the beginning.
ten pictures.
i like that number
and no i'm not lame okay.
sometime's there's too many words
but i actually like words, i just cant find them
i guess everything up there actually means something, they're not all just pretty pictures
and no i'm not lame okay.
sometime's there's too many words
but i actually like words, i just cant find them
i guess everything up there actually means something, they're not all just pretty pictures
Tuesday, 20 April 2010
oh deary me
MY PASSWORD.
my pencil case- my mirror
my WALL
my table
my kept birthday/special occasion cards
my PHOTOS
my stuffed toys
my clothes
dontreadthisdontreadthisdontreadthis
holy shit it would be like burning a museum; getting rid of..
fuck
i dont know if i'm capable of this kind of
pain?
my pencil case- my mirror
my WALL
my table
my kept birthday/special occasion cards
my PHOTOS
my stuffed toys
my clothes
dontreadthisdontreadthisdontreadthis
holy shit it would be like burning a museum; getting rid of..
fuck
i dont know if i'm capable of this kind of
pain?
IMAGINE ME SAYING THIS LIKE NIGAHIGA
only gayer and wearing a brightpink shirt and maybe bunny ears if youre bored.
I LIKE
. fingers
. nail-polish the morning after you apply it
. megavideo accounts
. apples which taste better than chocolate
. feeling as though everything is at my fingertips
. smiles for no reason
. exaggerated movements to get attention
. silky materials when i sleep
. scones with jam
. when things melt in your mouth, including kisses.
. not getting owned
. snap
. crackles
. pops
. familiar habits
. total honesty
. intimate looks
. cheer up hugs
. wrestle wars
. optical illusions
. anything glow-in-the-dark
. thinking in the shower
. cold noses (wow, i like these now :D) - unless i'm sick
. food with unexpected surprises
. transformations
. drawing diagrams
. confusing others with a hundred personal jokes piled on top of each other
. nerf guns which dont hurt
. thinking hard about the things i like
. being told i'm a good friend
. when people say they're great and i know for sure that they mean it
. the satisfied hand-cramping after a good round of work
. naps before dinner
. the buzzzzzz feeling in my stomach that i'm getting recently.
huh. aha the list is long. didnt realise woooops
YAY BASKETBALL TOMORROW :D
I LIKE
. fingers
. nail-polish the morning after you apply it
. megavideo accounts
. apples which taste better than chocolate
. feeling as though everything is at my fingertips
. smiles for no reason
. exaggerated movements to get attention
. silky materials when i sleep
. scones with jam
. when things melt in your mouth, including kisses.
. not getting owned
. snap
. crackles
. pops
. familiar habits
. total honesty
. intimate looks
. cheer up hugs
. wrestle wars
. optical illusions
. anything glow-in-the-dark
. thinking in the shower
. cold noses (wow, i like these now :D) - unless i'm sick
. food with unexpected surprises
. transformations
. drawing diagrams
. confusing others with a hundred personal jokes piled on top of each other
. nerf guns which dont hurt
. thinking hard about the things i like
. being told i'm a good friend
. when people say they're great and i know for sure that they mean it
. the satisfied hand-cramping after a good round of work
. naps before dinner
. the buzzzzzz feeling in my stomach that i'm getting recently.
huh. aha the list is long. didnt realise woooops
YAY BASKETBALL TOMORROW :D
Monday, 19 April 2010
QUOTE
3rd JUNE 2009 i think -
blog post of MSN SPACE
haha i havent changed at all i swear
blog post of MSN SPACE
haha i havent changed at all i swear
well blog, i'm back.
i bet you missed my love.
hahaha im a faggot.
well i had the day off today, and it was terribly lonely.
after two lovely days with my beautiful friends it was so .. quiet.
but yeah, i've got musical tomorrow after zone :)
which sounds fun, minus the fact that im confused about musical to the point of no return.
so much has happened to me, but its those kinds of things you dont want to look back on and analyse.
i've made some pretty shit decisions, some pretty good ones.
i've drifted, i've gotten closer.
i've tried new things, i've grown new interests.
i've grown bored with things.
i've remembered things that make me happy
i've realised the people that can make me ecstatic
i've opened up.
i've stayed quiet
ive mad plans, broken them. snuck out. bitched. flirted. been ditzy, embarrassed.
ive cheated, studied, all-nightered, yelled, slept, snuggled, waited, dreamt.
all in the glorious six months of my useless existence in which i didnt write down
welll well wellll
i'm going to go now and fantasize about chuck bass like the sad little chicken that i am
it'll take me a while to get used to this thing again yeah .
Cristopher Drew, write me a love letter one day ?
like you
Girl, you don't got nothing to prove to me
I know that times have been rough
For the both of us
But I'll pray for change
You see, this world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do,
But fall for you.
You know that I'm a wreck,
And you know I can't breathe;
At the edge of my seat with each word.
And as the months turn into years
Just know that I will wait here for you
Cause I prayed for change...
You see, this world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do,
But fall for you.
For you, for you, for you
This world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do but fall for you
- Hummingbird x
---ENDQUOTE----
Girl, you don't got nothing to prove to me
I know that times have been rough
For the both of us
But I'll pray for change
You see, this world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do,
But fall for you.
You know that I'm a wreck,
And you know I can't breathe;
At the edge of my seat with each word.
And as the months turn into years
Just know that I will wait here for you
Cause I prayed for change...
You see, this world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do,
But fall for you.
For you, for you, for you
This world has lots to offer but
In time it will go dark
And if this love is what we say it is,
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you,
There's not much else I can do but fall for you
- Hummingbird x
---ENDQUOTE----
Sunday, 18 April 2010
26 days of separation
6 countries.
2 people.
today in church we celebrated this couple's 50th wedding anniversary
and i got teary.
i looked at them, their children - now wrinkling too. their children
their grandchildren.
and i wondered how so many people came from two. a pair of people created so much life.
that kind of power is so scary.
here's something i read in church that i hope i will remember forever.
sometimes i feel that I've never experienced God. Is he really with me? I'm never sure.
But now i do.
(a) Suddenly time seems to stand still. Since God's dimension is totally beyond time, it's not surprising for us to feel that way whenever God's presence makes itself felt powerfully in our lives, causing time to intersect with eternity.
(b) We are so moved by something or someone that tears of joy or compassion spring to our eyes.
(c) Experiences which leave us so awed that they make our flesh creep.
(d) We know deep down that we need to do something, and that we won't have peace of mind until we do it, even though we may be unable to say what makes us so sure.
(e)We are given a new lease of life, or an experience that expands our heart or mind.
(d) We are suddenly given the courage and strength to accomplish something we had previously felt unable to do: to forgive someone, to master a task, or to surmount a difficulty that seemed greater than ourselves.
because I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for--
2 people.
today in church we celebrated this couple's 50th wedding anniversary
and i got teary.
i looked at them, their children - now wrinkling too. their children
their grandchildren.
and i wondered how so many people came from two. a pair of people created so much life.
that kind of power is so scary.
here's something i read in church that i hope i will remember forever.
sometimes i feel that I've never experienced God. Is he really with me? I'm never sure.
But now i do.
(a) Suddenly time seems to stand still. Since God's dimension is totally beyond time, it's not surprising for us to feel that way whenever God's presence makes itself felt powerfully in our lives, causing time to intersect with eternity.
(b) We are so moved by something or someone that tears of joy or compassion spring to our eyes.
(c) Experiences which leave us so awed that they make our flesh creep.
(d) We know deep down that we need to do something, and that we won't have peace of mind until we do it, even though we may be unable to say what makes us so sure.
(e)We are given a new lease of life, or an experience that expands our heart or mind.
(d) We are suddenly given the courage and strength to accomplish something we had previously felt unable to do: to forgive someone, to master a task, or to surmount a difficulty that seemed greater than ourselves.
because I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for--
Saturday, 17 April 2010
sunshine
i still have your essence in my memory,
and when it shows up it scares me because i like it too much. damn my ideals.
is it possible to be in love with a period of time?
is it possible to be in terror of another?
seems like a how i met your mother moment :)
you know, in deutschland - i bought this play-dough like glow-in-the-dark stuff that you can mould and stick to things. and now my roof is awesome. when i'm sad. i look at my roof and i laugh.
i want to talk to you.
and when it shows up it scares me because i like it too much. damn my ideals.
is it possible to be in love with a period of time?
is it possible to be in terror of another?
seems like a how i met your mother moment :)
you know, in deutschland - i bought this play-dough like glow-in-the-dark stuff that you can mould and stick to things. and now my roof is awesome. when i'm sad. i look at my roof and i laugh.
i want to talk to you.
Friday, 16 April 2010
i told you i would. i don't. back. down. (:
1. hahahahahahaha, blue. you be the cool. you have the best pre-sleep face.
2. i wish you the greatest and happiest life ever. you're too histerically awesome to let anything stop you from being yourself. it means so much for me to talk to you again
3. you smell like something i can't quite put my finger on. you stand over me just like the eiffel tower on a cold night. i like getting lost in conversation with you and your silly stonedness. one day the wishes will come true.
4. i never really understood how confusing it is for you until now. somehow, i know that you will end up with what you really need.
5. i think we just don't spend enough time together. but you are extremely cute, maybe you'd help with a little loving from a boy though ;) ;) hahaha
6. come home, i miss you. i need to tell you so much and i'm not sure that i'll want to if i wait too long.
7. you make everything so much easier. we should dedicate a public holiday to you- you amazing girl.
8. maybe i've helped you out too much. i put a lot of my heart into things that just haven't been maintained. i don't know if you even understand that. i dont think anyone could fathom how much it has warped my view of the world.
i shall wrote more when they come to me! hurrahrrr, why am i NOT SLEEPY!?
2. i wish you the greatest and happiest life ever. you're too histerically awesome to let anything stop you from being yourself. it means so much for me to talk to you again
3. you smell like something i can't quite put my finger on. you stand over me just like the eiffel tower on a cold night. i like getting lost in conversation with you and your silly stonedness. one day the wishes will come true.
4. i never really understood how confusing it is for you until now. somehow, i know that you will end up with what you really need.
5. i think we just don't spend enough time together. but you are extremely cute, maybe you'd help with a little loving from a boy though ;) ;) hahaha
6. come home, i miss you. i need to tell you so much and i'm not sure that i'll want to if i wait too long.
7. you make everything so much easier. we should dedicate a public holiday to you- you amazing girl.
8. maybe i've helped you out too much. i put a lot of my heart into things that just haven't been maintained. i don't know if you even understand that. i dont think anyone could fathom how much it has warped my view of the world.
i shall wrote more when they come to me! hurrahrrr, why am i NOT SLEEPY!?
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