release me

OH CHUCK AND BLAIR, YOU ARE SO ADORABLE.
tehehehe
cabaret night tonight.
intersting, nerve racking but in the end quite fun :)


i love my dancing girliesss <3 <3

taken 12.15 am :)

fact#13 - my almost 20yearold sister is like my bestfriend


farkkkk i love it when you're home :)
chyaaah beach on sunday!

hey baby, i'm naked... under all of these clothes.

Tom: Paul, seriously...
Paul: Did you bang her?
Tom: No!
Paul: Blow job?
Tom: No!
Paul: Hand job?
Tom: No, Paul, no jobs. I'm still unemployed. We just kissed.

There was a part that i can't find the quote of, but i think it went something like this:
Tom: Kissing in the coffee room, holding hands in ikea, shower sex. That doesn't sound like things that all 'friends' do, summer.
okay well i forget the rest but the movie was sososo funny !

HAHAHAHAHA okay right now i am so lame i think 500 days of summer is the cutest movie ever :)
nts: must buy dvd <3
I LOVE THE FACT THAT THEY PLAY THE PENIS GAME! :D its fucking adorable!
I LOVE THE FACT THAT TOM WRITES GREETING CARDS & when they break up he writes: [one of Tom's cards] Roses are red, violets are blue... (inside) fuck you whore.

watch it. i was going to quote more but i don't want to spoil it.










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coincidentally i watched another romance the day before.


man, it was so unrealistic but i couldn't stop watching


brooke shields was such a gorgeous teenager.




then i went out with channybear today, man her and ray are so cute :3, with their love heart bracelets with their names engraved on them, him sneaking to her house etc etc. naww

you can imagine how lonely i feel right now? hahahaha
oh, not to fear.
i'm happy and that's all i neeeeeed :)



fact #12 - i'm actually not all that bad of a liar.

keeping my head down. to see what it feels like now.

fact#11 for some reason i'm laughing really hard.

alone in my boxers at midnight

i can feel cool air on the skin of my stomach.
i've been dancing! random urge to dance, so i put on my trusty pointes and went on a rampage (:




i have this really shy idea which i would like to accomplish before i leave school. but i'm too scared to do it. i need to seriously get some balls.

tonight is one of those nights which i feel like company. someone to be around. i don't even need to talk to you. i just need someone around. it would be lovely. i really need a hug and someone who will play murder in the dark with me.

i tried calling a few people even just to talk, but nobody picked up o_o

GOOD JOB EELS!
GREAT LAUNCH SHADES FOR AIDS.
man talking to passionate people is a hell'a inspiring. if i didn't meet any of these people i wouldn't aspire to be anything ~ so thankyou to those people in this world that give me dreams.

fact #10 when i'm an adult it's my goal to own every single coldplay album there is. it would be cool if oneday somewone wrote me a song.


i feel naked hahahaha. you didnt read that.

all good things come to an end.

i like to thoughtlessly brain vomit.
Accidental death of an anarchist was one of the most complex and well written plays i've ever seen. i liked it. fuck i wish i could act that good. and write that good.
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a window in my ballet studio was left open on tuesday night, and the place was dusty like crazy!
so i spent most of todays lesson cleaning it up and taking pointless photos :)



it was all good until i realised that i got a hole in my favourite pair of undies. nonono. someone go buy me new sequined hello kitty undies hahahahahaha.

chyeahhh i got these for the un sexy one :

see husband, your wifey-feet still support you :3

it's surprising that your decision didn't come as a surprise to me.
it's a compromise you're making for the people in your life that you care about.
i commend you on this choice, and i hope it works out.
i hope you get what you need out of it without too much grief
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i find it hard to write down how i am feeling. that is why, even though i set out to go all teenage emotion in this blog i will restrain myself. because really, i wouldn't have a clue how.

fact #9 i forget things so often. sometimes i slap myself because i think of something brilliant and i forget it a few seconds later. i sometimes forget that some people love me. i forget what i'm doing. i forget to do something i promised. i forget to do my homework. i forgot your birthday.
sometimes it works out though. because sometimes, like on days like this, i forget how it feels to have ever been hurt.

hello world

i just started a drama script and i dont even know what i'm writing about but i'm still writing.
my sister is coming home on mondaaaaay and you cannot believe how excited i am.

sometimes i think of the world as one of those "choose your ending" books. what would have happened if i'd said no? what would have happened if i took a chance?



fact #8 yes i take lots of photos of myself. i don't care if you have a problem with that, i just get really bored and it is habitual.

or to try to be a little less lonely.

GOOD GIRLS GONE BAD!
orange sky.
the end of the world ?
no.
just
the
aftermath
of
a
dust-
storm :\

how un-interesting.

"'My flower is ephemeral,' the little prince said to himself, 'and she has only four thorns to defend herself against the world. And i have left her on my planet, all alone!'"

"Yes," i said to the little prince. "the house, the stars, the desert-what gives them their beauty is something that is invisible!"

As the little prince dropped off to sleep, I took him in my arms and set out walking once more. I felt deeply moved, and stirred. It seemed to me that i was carrying a very fragile treasure. It seemed to me, even, that there was nothing more fragile on all the Earth. In the moonlight I looked at his pale forehead, his closed eyes, his locks of hair that trembled in the wind, and i said to myself: "What i see here is nothing but a shell. What is most important is invisible..."

As his lips opened slightly with the suspicion of a half-smile, i said to myself again:"What moves me so deeply. about this little prince who is sleeping here, is his loyalty to a flower-the image of a rose that shines through his whole beinglike the flame of a lamp even when he is asleep..."

Then the prince went on with his reflections: "I thought that i was rich, with a flower that was unique in all the world; and all I had was a common rose. A common rose, and three volcanoes that come up to my knees-and one ofthem perhaps extinct forever...That doesn't make me a very great prince..."

And he lay down in the grass and cried.

fact #7 : My parents dont actually pressure me to do well in school whatsoever. I choose to try hard due to my own personal wants.

baby you're my equilibrium.

colour of my mind.

i've realised that when you're home alone you
a) eat way too much
which in itself is a good thing because i realised how much i like blueberry bagels with kiwi and passionfruit jelly!
b) think too much
which should always be avoided
c) procrastinate
it's inevitable.



fact #6 if you haven't realised by now, i think that the back is the sexiest part of the human body. hehehehe.

love, is such an easy thing to say.

watching the perfect man! (:
"It's like all the bad stuff that you went through that you hated along the way: the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted, suddenly, you feel grateful to them, because those are the things that got you here... to this."






-

fact #5 i can't speak my language, as in filipino. and i seriously seriously want to learn.

how existential.

"hmm. So if she is beautiful but no one is there to see it, does her beauty still exist?"

-CvZ

fact #4 : when i'm in a bad mood i like to turn up music extra loud and dance around my house. i'm now scared of doing this due to watching TAKEN in history yesterday; even though the chances of getting kidnapped in my own home are terribly low.

we're all losers sometimes

I sort of actually have jack all to say.

today i realised i've made some bad decisions.
i hope that the people these decisions affected will forgive me.
i am a little lost sometimes.

for some of today i felt alone.

hey. who wantssss to go to supernova or FS ?
telllll me :)
we can chilllll

fact #3 i sleep with my eyes slightly open, i did it at ballet today and i woke up with the little girls staring at me 0_0"

you are the sprinkles on my cupcake :3

SONGS ON REPEAT AHAH :

a) sexy bitch. no explanation necessary.

b) fighting for nothing

When I was younger, I wish that I would have known better. Better love makes a fat romance, that lasts for more than a shoe shine. I'm older, took all the words of my mother, saying,It could be worse, could be born with that disease, instead of catching it first. So let’s go back, to the first time, that I met you, in your Chevy, with your hands stretched, and me crying, screaming, “Mercy. Mercy.” But I know that, I was put here, to fight Vikings, in the cold war, with my arms out, in the front lines, singing, “Dare me. Dare me.” But these things take time love. These things take backbone. And they’ll tell you what you want to hear ’cause they think it’s better. Better. But you better know how to point out the liars. You’ve got to weigh your wars make sure you’re not fighting for nothing. Nothing. Are you fighting for nothing?
It feels like this world has been growing slowly upside down. Maybe I should move to China, and straighten this mess out. Maybe I’ll be a poet. Watch all the sky for falling words. And write about my grandma’s curtains, or the lady who put the Chinese buffet in her purse. I’ve got my mouth. It’s a weapon. It’s a bombshell. It’s a cannon. I’ve got my words. I won’t give them mercy. Mercy. I’ve got my words. I hope they hurt you.I hope they scar you. I hope they heal you.

I hope they cut you open, make you see you’ve been warring for all the wrong reasons. Make you see that some things are worth bruising for. Make you see that your name is your honor code. Make you see that your hands you’re accounted for. Pick and choose where your sweat and your blood will go. Make you see your life’s not to be lived alone. Run their spit through your hair, you’re worth nothing. Nothing.

c) -

If you're out on your own; feeling lonely and so cold. All you have to do is call my name, and i'll be there, on the next train :)

d) i love new kids on the block and jesse mccartney!

e) i can't wait till gossip girl and glee. >irrelevant< ^^"

fact #2 this weekend i consumed at least 6 cupcakes. i'm being serious.

♥

somewhere only we know.

one day, sometime soon. things will be back to normal. i promise :)

currently: writing my damned english story
eating: water and chicken
worrying: about what to get livvy for her bday ==

uhm, here is a post dedicated to my little bubble of a school -
james ruse, even though you sometimes make me feel like ripping my hair out, you will always be the school i call my own ;





omg it happened again O_O on the train. some random guy from the coast started talking to me.
hehehehehe, talking to strangers who are not pedo is quite interesting.


i decided to add a random fact to each post from now on
fact #1 - i love love love the smell of good old yellow UHU gluesticks and when i smell them i like to make my nose sticky.

you're only a stupid teenager once.

I love you, oh honey you've got to stop telling lies.


the newspaper that i was reading while on the loo was teaching me the keys to happiness.

here is what it said -
1. be positive
okay, um. my weekend will be hectic and i willll have lots of fun !

2. be brave
i think being around you is bravery enough.

3. meditate
haha i pray at least once a day & and the routine of ballet counts too i guess ?

4. be kind to yourself
hahaha hello amelia, you're looking extra cool today ;)

5. put your pessimism to work
haha for example, if i think i'm going to fail maths.. then i expect a bad result and dont get sad? haha good job.

6. find a calling
hmmm i'll save this one for later

7. act happy
here's a question for you.
how often do i look unhappy ?


well according to this i should be pretty damn happy
hahaha i think it's kicking in :)

she'll chase you around for a while;
but we all get tired
so remember, that one day
she'll stop running in circles around you
and at that very moment
you're going to wish you had let her catch you.

I didn't realise until just now.

OMFG I'M A NERD HAHAHAHHA YEAH BABY. lol nvm :)




it's the first time i've felt disconnected in a while.

i'd like to use this line to remind certain people how much they mean to me. they're like the bread to my butter, rofl the under to my pants. they keep me together when i dont know what todo, thanks guys.

ROFL DID I MENTION I'M A NERD ? 8)

people talking without speaking.

used
used
used ?



mmmmmm
do you want to play a game?

had to post this:
i was so excited about this ronmione pic --


& then i was like. hey it looks familiar !
and then i searched the ultimate rachel & gosling kiss and i find..


dayum, letdown lol.

congratulations on being a liar!

ahahaha what i do in ballet instead of dance ^^

YA - CHU bag!

okay, today i had this weird moment where something surprisingly confidence-boositing happened.

i was stuffing my face with cinnamon scroll, going up the escalator at the end of a pretty shit day; and this guy on the opposite escalator was trying to get my attention by waving at me. first i gave him a mass 'wtf' look, but then i saw he was cute so i just giggled hehehe.

then i realised random people talk to me on trains etc lots, but im too stoned to giveashit.

yuckkkkk my english story is gaybo.

and if kiran ever reads this, no i did not touch your dong LOL

i thought about you, and the way you treat me.

and i've realised; you're not worth it. you never were.

i'll eat you for breakfast.

KAI Z FENG!



hehehehe, skins. come back come back ~!



haha he's such a cutie man & the reason i crack up everytime someone with an accent says the word 'mature'.
errr. long story


i love it when bad days turn into good days when:
- i get my hands on some black tea and mint slice
or
fruit salad with lots of pineapple and watermelon!
yummmm. hehe i'm so food obsessed.

damn, that reminds me that Freya's mums 'chocolate thing' that she made was fucking delicious.

be a cool kid and buy a yachu !
http://ya-chu.blogspot.com/search/label/Designs
heheh i am getting onigiri tomorrrooow ^^




p.s. i would kill the cow, but she's already dead. hawhawhaw.
not really. i thought it was punny.

and i will try to fix you.

i sort of want to try something really really new.
so if anyone has any ideas. they should tell me.

i want to know what you're thinking.

You're not a plain cookie!

Today i ate a spider, but then i realised the spider really ate me.

all them people who think they're cool should meet this guy ROFL.

heheh pharelllllll <3

Today i learnt not to cry in the face of the people that laugh at you.

Today i realised that butterflies can be crushed as easily as they are admired.

Today i overheard that you never really know the truth.

I want to be four years old again.



hahaha, i've been a donowho girl since like 2006! mmm :)

eat my wobleeble, world.
word!