years come and go...

but 2010, you leave me speechless.
byebye soon. thnks fr th mmrs !

exactly the way i feel about you =

only a wish to be self-secure.

[Christina Aguilera]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls

[T.I.]
Observing the estate through the gate from the outside looking in
Bet you would think I got it made, better look again
I got butler, got a maid, and a mansion
The belief is that I’m living out a millionaires fantasy
With phantoms and Ferrari’s in the driveway
But you see the pain and the change of the same man’s
Your vision jaded by the grammy’s on the mantelpiece
Just switch your camera lenses you would see the agony
Apparently it’s damaging the man you see before you
On the canvas he may seem alright but all the disadvantages his family
Encounters overpowers his extravagance
Walk in my? I dare you
While it really seem like the kings life ain’t glamorous
As seen through the eyes of untrained amateurs
Because the camera’s don’t see beyond the walls of the smiles
Only counts until it falls in the pile

[Christina Aguilera]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls

[T.I.]
Honestly to me, I think I’d lose every benefit of all that I’ve accomplished
If my key is never with it, shit
Me knowing this, why should the verses I have laid
Be more important to me than the persons I have raised
I guess I’m saying that to say that opportunity
But they just don’t equate to all the time they take away
From the kids all the shit I did right is a mistake
If deyjah end up a stripper and major slinging yay
How could I ever consider myself a great
If messiah ain’t paid and nique nique ain’t straight
Would your favorite song about the whips, money and shit
Be relevant if you found out, the money wasn’t real, nope
So me being the goat shouldn’t mean more to me
Than see it to a king though
From a bad ass kid to man with some dough
Otherwise I may well have stayed poor
So while they stay focused on me beefin with flip,
Shawty low, Gucci or Ludacris
Or if I’m fucking with a hoe
Did I snitch when I got arrested or will I die over nonsense
Internally I’m dealing with this conflict
So excuse me if I don’t get the chance to kiss the hand
Or slap me in the face, ay I, m just the man
If they saying I ain’t the best at making hit records
It’s cause this my life these ain’t just rapping
shit, you think of that deep, did ya dawg
See you can’t see the castle through the walls till it falls
Bitch ain’t thinking with the deep, did ya dog
Cause see you can’t see the castle through the walls till it falls

[Christina Aguilera]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls

Nobody knows I’m all alone
Living in this castle made of stone
They say that money is freedom but I feel trapped inside it all
And while I sit so high up on a throne
I wonder how I can feel this low
On top of the world it’s beautiful
But there’s no place to fall

[T.I.]
For the record ay, I give a damn if I never said shit again
My career was meant for me to come and tell it
Honest interpretation of how affected I’m faced with
Matters most rappers used to keep locked away in the basement
The day that I walk I ain’t saying that I’m amazing
Down playing the way I keep fellas from catching cases
Won’t take into consideration how much it mean what I’m saying
And when I say what I mean even when I’m surrounded by the fakers
From one of the greatest centers, blessed with most of god’s graces
Who made his way amongst the greatest from the grimiest places
So next time you rating royalty, I’m always being given to recordings than the level
Of your loyalty, obvious you’ve been ignoring me
Who else ya seen make it through the storm, unharmed disjointed
While all the critics was looking for prince charming
Disregarded the king of the south raised doubt
Even though he made a castle out of used to be a house
He did shit that all your favorites rappers only rap about
But most of y’all don’t see the castle through the walls
And the smiles till it falls in piles so while…

[Christina Aguilera]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it’s so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There’s no-one here at all, behind these castle walls

[T.I.- Castle Walls Lyrics (feat. Christina Aguilera)]

how could i forget a face like yours ? ;)

nothing to blog about, really. angry that i didnt make a lookbook post for yesterday D: i just realised how much i liked what i was wearing lolol after hating it the whole day

just for all you hipsters, (including me atm actually lmfao)

i should really stop complaining haha

you called me cutiepie this morning ! sigh why did i blog that... == MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!

wantchu to make me feel, like im the only girl in the world

You do know your christmas present to me is making me feel like i'm not enough for you ? :|

jealousy is poisonous.

i was going to blog about being lonely, but then i realised it's an insult. it's an insult to all those amazing people who actually stick out every day with me;
- who pretend i'm wearing sunglasses indoors because i think i'm cool and not because... i'm crying for no reason and i really need to find a way to stop that LOL
- who wait in line at a cutlery store so i can buy some bloody chopsticks
- & who tell me i'm not lonely and remind me that they're always there.

because fuck it, i may not be like you. but i've already lived through it and it's too much work. i'm much less stressed not caring what you think i wish i could stop comparing but i can't. the poison is my drug of choice. it's alot better than that awful tobacco in you, isn't it ?

canberrastylez, sneak peak. ceebs uploading haha :)

you're shit beautiful :')

^sorta weird, but i like how he's from sydney and isn't half bad :)

it's not that complicated, just click accept. it's not that hard i swear.

on another note, i never thought i'd hear heart attack and your name in the same sentence.
stay strong, i want you to see me succeed remember ?
fuck.

the end of an era, and you thought i was a big girl.

:'(


x

stolen of jess's tumblr. :)

I’m a slut because i’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m annoying because i’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because i’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time i’m happy. I’m weird because i’m not like you. I’m controlling because i get mad. Sometimes i’m clingy because i like being around people. I’m greedy because i like to be satisfied. I’m naive because i’m younger than you. I’m conceited because i’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. i’m unappreciative because i don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who i am because i already know.

OH THAT'S IT

I WAS ONE MARK... ONE FRIEKING MARK OFF GETTING STRAIGHT BAND 6'S FOR SC.

GEO. ONE MARK. SCREW THAT. I SHOULDN'T HAVE NAPPED.

haha it's not bad results i'm angry at, it's that i was so close to my goal but not quite there that's peeving me off ):

cleaning the house.

yeah, i was going to write something. but i forgot. happy holidays!

LOL A LITTLE BIT COMPULSIVE.

so yeah, just so you know... the posts not written in 'georgia' are from my phone. usually i write those in bed LOL

anyway; yesterday zero parra had like a 2 hour sale !! my lustlist had a pair of cheeky black high-waisted shorts so i had to buy the WRANGLER ONES FOR 25% OFF OMGSH :) (they're the black ones in the first photo exactly!)
and yeah they make my ass look like the girl in the second photo... it's gonna take a lot of work to ease my dad into letting me wear them out of the house... (Y)

whoa sorry for sounding so dark and emo, it was just a thing..

so i love it when a pretty good report causes a banquet for dinner and a family night out involving racing p platers down the road, buying soft serve cones and having awkward conversations about the true sexual meanings of songs. oh how i love to be a Varua. (:

corny morning

God put a boy on this earth to be my best friend and protector. I dont even remember ehy, but since the first day we met, our fates have stuck together. It feels like it was by accident , like we didnt see the supereglue just sitting there. but i know it has purpose. (:

i see my soul in the mirror

ive missed to many appointments, like the boy sitting next to the side of the road. what am i going to do? its too much, too frequent now. my hands are shaking. how am i supposed to help you when i cant even help myself? I guess now its okay to hate the person who knows you the most

i always take your advice when it's too late

my heart's so good at breaking now. now i just gotta work on putting it together. im sick of pretending like its okay. you know this was the reason, the cause. you know it was a trigger. stop proving your point. and if youre really like that, maybe they were all right. maybe i need to think again.

so yeah i can't sleep but you can

since when was it ever okay to stop trying ? I'm sick of feeling like youre too good for a reply. press send. it was never "too expensive" before.

WOWOWOWO SHIT AWESOME

hello sunshine!

hahaha a little (tinyteeny! honestly) sneak peak of my fucktastically awesome xmas presents :)
*if i do say so myself...

HEY! IT'S CHRIS BROWN

THAT MADE ME FUCKING PUMPED. PUMPED FOR YOUTH BRO HAHAHA
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO ABUSE HER? WE COULD HAVE A SERIOUS ONE SIDED RELATIONSHIP GOING ON MR C.B. BECAUSE WITHOUT THAT SHIT YOU ARE MAYBE THE SEXIEST CELEBRITY I CAN CURRENTLY THINK OF.
secret unrealistic wish: i will be in a video like that one day. preferably dancing around wearing a midriff top and forever immortalising the simple pleasure of being young and carefree.

OH MY IT'S SO PRETTY. I HOPE HE LIKES IT.

there's this stunning feeling when you accomplish something for someone else.
my favorite is planning a surprise.



delivering hampers to people tomorrow. sigh, in 6 hours. should sleep more.
i really need to be cheery for that :)
i want to make them happy.

the tower.

drinking coffee, smudged upper eyelid of liquid mascara, a too-short dress, the smell of marc jacobs daisy and stromae playing in the background of the cafe

rush.rush.rush.
memories which i must
erase.erase.erase.

oh dear blog, you've missed a lot.

wellllll, last few weeks i've been quite content.

i met lots of cool people: like that sudanese ex child-soldier named Chute at the charity dinner (thanks for being so kind and saying sorry! i really don't mind. it was an honor to meet you, even if you don't read this hehehe) and the random babes&dudes at Dianas partay!
i've eaten so much i'm going to explode. took the afternoon off on tuesday to eat pho with annie -

and today i had the yummmmiest ramen :D -

mmmm today was a very chill day with my sister :) we watched due date in gold class, ate risotto balls and cheese, and drank moet chandon and cosmos until the movie HAD to be funny. it was anyway :) so our laughter wasn't too out of place...
year 10 is coming to an end. i don't know how i view that. all i know is that i like the feeling of sleeping in and feeling like i have the time to do anything i like.

JAPAN IN JUST OVER A MONTH! BEST BDAY PRESENT EVER :)

i did not realise how much i love this photo until moments ago.

♥

hiiiiii

i will be your motivator, your guide, your light.
i won't let you fall.

diana yoo's birthday 4thdec :)

:')

I need me a pair of leather shorts. please.

head and shoulders shampoo is the only thing i'll keep from you

I THINK ITS OUR ANNIVERSARY TODAY :DDDDD YES YES IT IS AND I LOVE YOU!