Fucking angry at everything. Not anyone. Not my stress migraines. Just - eughhhhh i'm such a dickhead sometimes. Soz, not meaning to be deep i'm just posting thought-piss
Angry at not being good at anything anymore
I used to be GOOD at things
I can't really find anything i'm good at anymore.
I don't really know how to extend myself, nor do i have the motivation to do so.
I have the ambition, but childhood conditions have inhibited my ability to grow - to break past this inferior state of mind.
Did i deserve it? To be pushed at a status below? To be considered as of lower effort; a disregarded member of an otherwise exceptional cohort?
Subconscious, immediate, dismissive
No, i didn't. I was brainwashed to believe so
And it is now, at this realisation that i regret.
I regret feeling insecure
I regret putting so many perceptions
above me
Because it restrained my growth
...And now, sadly, theres barely enough room to move.
I hope this balances out in life somehow.
My fingers are crossed that it will.
Yay for the underdog.
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