Scary world

Getting the creeps even more so, as the degrees of thought separation in my mind have blurred.
So i was like, hey, let's watch candy (root thought: thinking about drug addiction, celeb deaths etc)
Then i was like okay, drug movies are intense; lets read about other ones (root thought: let's do some research)
i come across 'Requiem for a dream' (movie) (next thought: isn't that a name of that musical piece that freaks the shit out of me? i listen to it when i'm having moments of total susgsjsbkdbjdksbdjdud - errr 'inexplainable distance'. Yes, that's what i'm going to call it - you named it so well)
So i youtube the piano version (because it's made me all reminiscent of when i'd heard you play it for me, which i wasn't sure it WAS you at the time so i was trying to make sure) (root thought: getting all reminiscent and life contemplative as i like to do instead of studying)
And i listened to it... And it had that same chilling kind of mourning feeling it does every other time (root thought: i began thinking about death)

AND THEN
I read the comments and learn that the norway shooter listened to the song on full blast as he was murdering his victims.
Googled = legit.

So there is the adventure of my mind
And i'm scared of all the freaky places my mind often takes me.

/end being a weirdo, lol. Person who used to play it. I admit to not praying much anymore, but i still pray for you./

P.S - if in that miniscule chance you read this, sorry for the random deepness, it's not in my character anymore to be like this - but you know me well; and you know that i can trust you to not think i'm insane. Haha. I've stolen your happiness shield for a bit. I'm glad i could though - i guess that means you don't need it anymore :) i miss contemplating everything with you. There's not that many people who enjoy it as much as i did with you.