Ten
things I wish I could say to ten different people (but don't say their name)
1. You hurt me. So badly. So much more
than I have ever been hurt in my life and right now I don’t know what to do but
ignore you.
2. You scare me, and half the time I’m
caught unsure of how to be brave around you.
3. I don’t love you that way, and I hope
you understand that this will never change.
4. I feel jealous of everything you are -
your confidence makes me feel so small
5. You and I would be so great together.
Friends, whatever, more? Just… together. But we’re like strangers - don’t you
feel it though, every time we meet?
6. Why are you so hard to read? Do you
want to be my friend? We can now - you know that right? We can be friends, and
I can care about you like when we were thirteen and had no problems.
7. You make me want to be better.
8. I wish you’d see how much you mean to
me. And if you do, let me know that you know. Because I love you and you are in
all ways perfection to me.
9. Never, ever, leave me. I don’t know
what I’d do.
10. You know nothing truly about me, why do
you care? Is there some ulterior motive? What am I? What will come of this?
Nine
things about myself
1. I’m not ready to start a new year just
yet. I feel like I’m letting go of something
2. I spent majority of my childhood
thinking I wasn’t lovable enough to ever find a boy to like me back. When I
finally realised this wasn’t true (since everyone is lovable), I think I may
have taken the realisation too far. Lol.
3. I’m probably one of the most hopeless
romantics… ever?
4. I want to be a doctor – still.
5. I am clucky as fuck. I don’t even
restrain myself around men (and that might be a problem because they think I’m
a crazy bitch). But seriously, I love children and babies and familial things.
I’m not saying I want it now – but it’s the dream. It’s what I want one day.
And babies are just friggin’ cute ok.
6. I can pretty much never sleep before
2am
7. I am a bit of a clothes hoarder. Dude,
I have clothes from when I was 15 that barely fit me. I think I keep them
because of the memories or something, but yeah… every time I do my clothes
charity run I keep so much stuff I don’t need. Maybe it’s their smell or their
nostalgic value. I feel selfish, but I’m someone that takes long to let go.
8. I struggle with my weight now.
Actually, not now. I’ve always been insecure over it. But now I have a reason
to be, and it is so irritating – I just want to be comfortable with it. But
hey, I guess a lot of girls can agree with me here.
9. I think much more than I need to
/should.
Eight
ways to win my heart
1. Earn my trust
2. Be silly with me
3. Be honest
4. Have big dreams, and share them with me
5. Be okay with being quiet
6. Surprise me
7. Remember details
8. Understand me
Seven
things that cross my mind a lot
1. How my life relates to any media/song
that I am viewing at that point in time
2. I need to fart (haha, omg dat honesty)
3. Food
4. He’s cute, but does he think I’m fugly?
Ok let’s give up
5. That’s such a nice shirt/top/pair of
shoes/outfit
6. Do I have enough money for that?
Six
things I do before I fall asleep
1. Read notifications on phone
2. Brush teeth
3. Wash face
4. Facebook (bad habit, leads to below)
5. Think too much
6. Think way, way too much
Five
people who mean a lot to you
1. Mum
2. Dad
3. Sister
4. BAM
5. Uni loves
Four
things you're wearing right now
1. Undies
2. Nightie
3. Vatican city bracelet
4. Circle of hearts bracelet
Three
songs that you listen to often
1. Midnight City
– M83
2. Charlie Brown – Coldplay
3. Riptide – Vance Joy
Two
things you want to do before you die
1. Save a life
2. Have a child
One
confession
1.
I don’t know if there’s anything else to unravel. This blog already has so much
of me, haha. I know! I apologise for not writing here more often this year (to myself, also). I really should have. I feel like a big chunk of my life has been left meagerly docmented. I'll make sure that's not the case next year. x
